The last 72hours of packing, moving, settling and changing

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I grateful to the following people who have helped me in the my path, travelling at the speed of Love! Thank you Keri B who introduced me to Andrea Barras who in turn introduced me to Pippa Griffin, who inturn introduced us to Sandy Wright who manages Phuzamoya. Thank you to Pippa and Sandy who gave us the go ahead to move in 2 days ahead of schedule. Thank you to Katie Robinson (@Lemonwood cottages) who gave us Siyobonga to help us offload our goods. Thank you to Carlene Bronner at Horseplay for the use of her wonderful Driver Dennis and her Landrover and trailer. Thank you to Vick Shaw who baked us cheese muffins for me and bacon muffins for Willem, freshly delivered with Butter and Jam, on the day of our move, thank you for helping us offload. Thank you to Sandy Wright for all your hard work and for the LOVELY organic kale, radishes, turnips and eggs!

Our path to this moment has been interesting, adventurous and nothing short of amazing! The human spirit is capable of so many things, I am feeling I am just starting to comprehend what we can do as human beings having a SPIRITUAL experience, here on Earth.



When it comes to moving and packing, I turn into a minion, not the yellow kind, but the Purple one with the fuzzy hair, I want to pack ferociously but in my enthusiasm, I get it wrong, so poor Willem would reopen and repack the boxes.

I am good with unpacking, so I try to just be of service and listen to what Willem needs and I will do the task that is requested of me. I am task orientated so

You can guess, he gave me all the “I hate” task like unscrewing screws which takes me forever.

Willem felt he had many moments of telling me, please sit down and sit on your hands. (He didn’t)



I love new adventures, but I don’t like the unsettling feeling of moving, not having my sacred space,

makes me anxious, like losing something valuable to me.

It has been 48 hours and I have already unpacked every single box present.

I unpacked my last studio box yesterday.

I have this special way of packing everything in towels and rolling them gently so no damage will occur,

but after 10 towels of unwrapping the shells, stones and precious items,

I so don’t like my surprise towels anymore. Order is slowly starting to replace the chaos.


Settling :

The first evening and the second evening and every other evening I will have a coarse salt bath with Epsom salts.

I placed rosequartz around the bath and a quartz crystal and just soaked up the amazing feeling and energy of cleansing my body.

I so love baths! I love the clean feeling!

The most amazing thing is, we have electricity which means my cellphone charges faster, we have

cell phone signal everywhere!

My Salute super blender is working amazing faster! My computer is working

at a wonderful humming sound.

The hot water from the tap is HOT! (time to giggle with me)

The brick walls hold the cold out, how freaking fabulous.

We haven’t made a fire yet! We have been wearing shorts and t shirt, no

Warm jackets or beanies, they are happily packed away!

The floor no longer creaks when we walk on it. We can switch on lights at any time.

We are still enjoying the silence of no refrigerator presently, but we might consider purchasing a small freezer in the future.

I have started juicing beetroot, carrot and apple, to embark on my detox journey.

I admit I love carbohydrates, I love potatoes and bread, and these have been my survival comfort food for the last 6 months, I agree its time to discipline myself with LOVE! And get back my focus.

Energetically, the energy has shifted, we feel completely different since moving from a harsh environment, to a more comfortable space.

It is freaking amazing, it to be able to have comforts like this.

I went grocery shopping at 4.02pm on Monday afternoon and returned at 5.10pm, having done all my errands at Pick and Pay and Spar, travel time and

Shopping time, cut down from 3hrs, to 1 hour. (freaking awesome)


Changing :

Travelling at the Speed of LOVE is changing and currently growing my heart, mind and spirt more! I am happy. I am enjoying this lighter side of life, overlooking the mountain, the dam, the trees, connecting with Spirit more.

Having a lighter self, to laugh and love myself and learn finding the higher ground of love. It is attracting LIKE minded people who seek the same thing, to love, to be spirit, to enjoy this earthly existence.


I have had such a good nights sleep that last night, that I woke up at 4am filled with these words for my blog! I meditated, did yoga and now I want to go enjoy the sunrise outside!

Wishing you a fabulous happy day!


I start massaging, reiki ing and setting up appointments for next week!



Colleen van Heerden


When the other shoe has dropped!

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Staring at my last few days at Satori farm, I have had a deeper realization of myself.

First off, I love living in the country but I don’t enjoy living in the outback.

I will explain, I feel vulnerable, at risk and insecure living in a wooden cabin,

in the middle of nowhere. The weather conditions of gale force winds, extreme

Cold and rain, are scary for me.

I am accustomed to seeing people around me and enjoying the company,

I am feeling like I am on a deserted island, this is not good for me.

Secondly, our air-sulated cabin letting in the sunshine, wind, rain and all types of forces

Makes me feel insecure and not protected from nature.

Thirdly, the new clients I have seen in the last 6 months have been quite dramatic.

Filled with drama, either angry at me for the distance they have travelled,

or very disgruntled because of the road,

or they have gotten lost, or

had a accident on the way here, this has not been a loving experience for me.

Fourthly, Willem copes well in this environment of rough living, me… not so much.

I find it to be a harsh life, of no female energy, everything is about survival from

Chopping wood for survival, to having quick showers, to conserving petrol in the generator, to

Monitoring the solar panels.   I feel there is no female soft energy with this type of living.

No comfortable bathtime, no watching a quick motivational movie,

no showering for 20 minutes and talking to myself.

No romance either, this is what we have encountered with the cold weather.

No comfortable sleeping, 3 duvets just doesn’t make it nice.

What really helped me cope with all of this madness is Love.

I have been working on myself, to keep

A open heart, to forgive easily, to say I am sorry, to be quiet and learn what is needed for my growth.

Growth, change, a deep appreciation for my relationship and having immense

gratitude for everything from the cold showers I take, to the sunshine.

Learning that I am connected to so many people because I love and care.

I have learnt to discern who is my friend, and who is my foe.

I have stepped away from negative fear based people! And with loving arms into a

Friendships that build me up, encourage me, make me laugh at my madness and circumstances.

Because, it is what we dislike that encourages us to grow, to learn, to change, to Master ourselves.

The last 6 months has been the most uncomfortable part of my life.

I have been pushed to my limits physically, emotionally and grown spiritually,

and  this is what I needed.

I needed to become a stronger person within myself, harnessing lessons from the Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, from Hópono pono to love myself, to say I am sorry, to forgive and say thank you, to be guided

by Sonia Choquette’s book : travelling at the speed of LOVE!

To understand myself and others better! And have a deeper awareness of what I think and how I react to life!

To be grateful and full of LOVE is the highest vibration as per Dr Emoto.

May I continue on this journey of LOVE and self discovery.

Learning, growing and becoming aligned with my true path as a healer, blogger, therapist, wife, teacher!

Aloha and thank you! to you for the on going support.



Time to Change, to Alkaline foods. . . .

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After my last blog, the Colleen guilt, my conscious mind and lack of discipline hit me hard.

On Saturday, I decided to do a detox! I drank green smoothies of spinach, banana,

pineapple, I consumed huge amounts of lemon juice water, I ate steamed spinach

and declined any white bread!

It started small but, I feel much better.

I also received a detox massage to reboot my body which helped a lot! I feel lighter.

I have had a good talking to myself and its time to eat more alkaline foods which

feed my body and spirit.  My food which I ingest fuels my body, mind and spirit, so its

imperative to have balance. The occasionally fried item is ok! but

no more junk food like white bread, magnums or samoosa’s from Thokans!

My body functions better on salads, smoothies, juices and steamed spinach,

the occasional fresh fish would be LOVELY!

Check in with yourself, time to reign in the discipline and make better choices for your

diet and body!

Happy Sunday!


My Yom Kippur feelings . . .



What is Yom Kippur? Yom Kippur is the Day of Atonement on the Jewish Calendar.

You fast from sunset to sunset. When I did Yom Kippur, by like 2pm, I felt

I had atoned for all my sins, and I had apologised to everyone, but sunset

was far from close by, so I felt sorry, but the day wasn’t over.

This is much the same feeling I have currently, I have learnt many

valuable lessons here in the Dargle mountains, but I have 13 days left of endurance.


I have a deep appreciation for brick walls, man was definitely wise.

Running hot water from a geyser, is like a pot of gold for sure.

Refrigerator with magic stuff in it, bonus!

The silence of electricity  to power stuff! as opposed to the noisy generator.

I won’t be worrying about my cell phone battery anymore, it will be fully charged.

Cell phone signal, currently, there are 3 spots of signal in the entire cabin, yay for signal all day!

We drive a distance of 45km to Howick, we will now spend 20 minutes driving to Howick

from the Karkloof on any given day, yay!

The new house has a huge fireplace which means, we will have to chop wood less small! hello painfree body.

It will be less cold, so we can return to a carb free diet!  and not a SEE food diet, we have been

applying due to the cold and needed comfort. 

Thank you to everyone who has laughed, cried, giggled, shared, supported and Loved us

in this journey!


Thank you to my Mother in law! who is super awesome!


Lotsa Love

Colleen !


How to turn your gloomy grey day into a play day?


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Yesterday was Womens’s day! a Public holiday in South Africa.

It was rainy and cloudy. My cat TOMtom has been running circles in the house :

on the couch, the double bed, the computer desk and back. He was bored!

He dislikes the rain. I woke up with him kissing me. He wakes us up with cat kisses at sunrise.

Its his way of saying “Wake up! this sleeping thing is boring.

I wake up first…., putting on the solar lights and starting a fire, in order to make tea.

Tea is Tomtom’s favourite. His super impatient for his morning tea. Fire has

started and we defrost slowly.

I start with my yoga stretches, I was very stiff, with the cold weather and the

well air conditioned wooden cabin.  (15 days to go  . . )

I mentally start preparing myself for my walk in the rain. If I don’t walk, and get

grounded, I know I will be super grumpy, all day. So, I put on my warm jacket

and gumboots with umbrella in hand, and off I go up the Hill.


On the Hill there is 3 G cell  signal which is full blast, now I can first ground me,

sing my Hawaiian chant and then send out my daily inspiration messages.

I already meditated and reiki’d me and sent out Distant Reiki Healing energy

to a lady in Cape Town. (She will be visiting me soon!)


It is cold! But it doesn’t matter. We have made our space toasty!

 I m singing and I am in my good space.

I admire the mist and rain falling. The Ihlosane mountain has completely disappeared.

How wonderful and in awe I am of nature.

I return home with muddy gum boots, a wet umbrella and my smile.
Immediately, I remove my boots and put on some music.
Jack Johnson and Xavier Rudd are my all time favourite musicians.


The fire is going and we make toast with the bread which Willem baked last night

and warm tea. We decide what we will make for lunch.

We both agree on a warm pumpkin soup.


We take turns in chopping wood. Willem starts and I follow in between

stirring the soup on the Welcome Dover stove.


I have the idea to bake a cake after we made soup and we quickly think of what type of cake?

A lemon and ginger cake. Yummy!


I am ever so grateful for this Welcome dover stove, it keeps us warm, we have made

toast, tea, a warm soup and a cake.

You can tell Willem and I play well together in the kitchen.

In between we laughed and decided that I am Pinky and his MacGyver

or I am Batman and his Alfred.
We have managed to even pack a box together, box no 13, things are

beginning to look empty and spacy now…


You can certainly change your mind set with a decision to play and have fun!

even if it is dark and gloomy outside.


Learn to create.

PLAY is the most important thing you can do for you!

Think of new recipes…

Try something new. . .

Keep you happy and in a good space!


a ll m y   love





How to be Spiritual in your corporate / daily life ?



We are living in interesting times! Consciously everyone is waking up!

Their SPIRIT is being shaken, stirred, and awakened.

So … what does this mean?

Well you have a SOUL. You have a spirit which intuitively knows what to do,

your Gut feeling.

So, if you live in a Corporate environment, a lot of stuff will stress you out.

Here are some tools for you!

Wake up early, 5.30am and take time out to Pray.

Pray for a awesome day. Meditate on filling your body with LOVE.

Meditate on staying calm. Start a daily routine of YOGA. yes Yoga.

Go for a walk of 20 minutes, everyday!

Imagine growing roots to the CORE of the Earth, tie yourself to the Big rock,

use your Arms and  Connect with the Sky, now! fill your aura with light and blue shield.

Say you are grounded and whole.

Next Choose a MANTRA and SING it : OOm mani padmi OOM or anything you love :

The Sound of Music : Doe Ray Me so Fa La Ti Doe : You get the picture.

Dawn is the most powerful part of the day!  Make sure the first 2 hrs of the day  is SPENT

on you!

You can also start wearing Hematite and Obsidian gem stones to protect you!

Change your diet to LIGHT foods : salads, fruit and vegetables are brilliant.

Start Juicing and making smoothies.

Go for REIKI or Massage or both ! often….. (Call me 084 603 0604)


When you at your office, 1 hr before everyone:

  1. Burn incense.
  2. Fill the corners of your office with Rose quartz.
  3. Play Music : Buddah bar / anything chilled.
  4. When things get rough, light a candle, it will soothe you.
  5. Say NO often and maintain your boundaries.
  6. Deep breathes x 6, then exhale and say Haaaaaaa….
  7. Don’t face anyone head on, turn your body slightly, energy vampires exist!
  8. Don’t be Ask Mary ? who has the advice every Monday morning, avoid it.
  9. Excuse yourself to the bathroom and just go and breathe.
  10. Don’t eat lunch at your desk, go for a walk, it will give you a new perspective.
  11. Tea is a HUG in a cup! take your break.
  12. Smile often, giggle even more, it isn’t serious, its just a job.


Feel free to email me :    I have many

Tools you can use………

Surrender : Follow your heart : follow the flow



The last few months has been trying.

I have endured it with the help of REIKI, meditation, yoga, walking, talking to my spirit, praying and

learning to conquer my Shadow.

I realized I needed more…so I started reading :

I started with a book called Ho opono pono, to love, to forgive, to say I am sorry and thank you for every single experience. It has taught me, that greatness is in forgiving and saying you are sorry, and loving no matter what you encounter, having a open heart is crucial to living your spirit.

I then started Sonia Choquette’s book called  Travelling at the speed of LOVE!

Love is what brought Willem and me together, Me praying and asking for my soul mate, 17 years ago.

Love is in speaking our truth about living at Satori and realizing this is not it and

having the courage to be honest and face our truth.

Love is in sharing our experience thus far and knowing that all will be ok.

Love is in asking for boxes from the Universe and having so many delivered to us. (thank you)

Love is in knowing help is a phone call away, if we need it.

Love is in having friendship of so many who support, and also laugh at our madness.

Love is in not judging, blaming, assuming or taking anything personally on this journey.

LOVE is having a open heart, feeling the sunshine and hearing no wind and knowing that

It will be ok! An open heart ready to forgive and be gentle with yourself and with others.

Learning new tools to breathe deeply, to let go and let life happen.

A quote from her book: The best way around such a situation is to connect with your heart every day, even on the smallest matters, so that you establish such a strong and automatic connection with your heart that it becomes only natural to rely upon it in stormy circumstances.

This is how I have learnt to be strong and focused despite all the challenges of living in a wooden cabin.

A open heart! To be Loving towards myself and others! Is the KEY to life / and or any situation and a BIG dose of LAUGHTER!!!!

We have laughed so much! On this journey when it got to serious! Laughter just kicks in…

Love & Laughter the keys to a whole hearted Loved life.


All my love

Colleen van Heerden




How to Master Yourself?


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How to Master yourself?

This week has been interesting. We left to meet someone at Piggly wiggly and when we returned home, the hill behind our house had been set on fire.  We had previously buried the water pipe, lucky for us, one of the pipes were just melted a bit but was still in working order. Emotionally you can’t really react, you just accept it and carry on.

Yesterday, the water in the pipes froze, the toilet water froze and even the donkey water froze solid!

We waited until after 10am for the water to defrost. Water expands, so with the expansion,

a Pipe opened and water started flowing into the bathroom, luckily Wp is hands on and managed to fix the problem quickly. I cleaned the floor and mopped the excess water and hoped it would be all ok.

It has been cold! With howling winds pumping and rocking the wooden cabin, so much so that when you go wee, it feels like a rocking chair.  A total new experience for me….rocking loo!  :-)

The wind brings dust and dust everywhere.

Living in a Wooden cabin has been very challenging for me, more challenging than INDIA, I think.

I have learnt NOT to complain, to just go with it. These Elements of Earth, Wind, Fire, Water aren’t personal or aimed at me, it just is.

I have also realized that I can live in extreme heat and extreme cold, I can handle it, but I am not exactly happy with it. So, I realize that I am tough and I have endured 6 months of intense physical work.

We have digged, sifted, built, chopped, cleaned, painted, carried, moved : we have created a home space, to work, to live, to be and we both realize WE can do this! And have learnt many skills

About life.

We have learnt to work together, we have learnt to communicate better, we have learnt to be confident within ourselves, we have learnt to be STRONG even if we cry….

We have learnt to Endure and Perservere.

We have gained so much support and love from friends, family and acquaintances.

Mastering yourself is not easy! But the character growth has been extra ordinary.

In closing : Would I do this again?   No, but I have learnt a lot and I am thankful for the lessons I have learnt, to just go with the FLOW! And Step into the UNKNOWN path called life, trusting that there is a HIGHER Plan from the DIVINE, to grow me, even if I am UNCOMFORTABLE and COLD.

This will pass! It’s the countdown to moving in +- 24 days!

Thank you for the support and LOVE!


Colleen van Heerden


Moving on : from Satori to Phuzamoya Karkloof

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So by now you know that I am moving!

Moving entails packing and packing. The emotional side of it, is also confronting your

own feelings of disappointment and accepting it with grace.

Grace of knowing when I packed the last time, I was up for the adventure of

building my own house, realizing that this dream, unfortunately is not a reality,

and being ok with it, was a process.

It started with LOVING myself, and realizing that moving here, was my

learning curve, discovering my own limits and weaknesses, and loving

and accepting myself despite them all.

I know, I dislike cold, last week, it was -11 with howling winds of 95km per hour.

I realized that I could not take a shower because I was to cold, that is when I knew,

this is it. I accept that I need to move and shift and change my paradigm to

a new reality. My life until now has been such an adventure, we have created

a home out of 2 old cabins, built a bathroom, created a sacred space in less than 5 months.

We are capable of anything, even moving again, so we can be comfortable.

Whats next?   Move to Phuzamoya and run movie evenings with Inspirational messages,

do Woman’s one day cleanse workshop, and meditation/ sound healing evenings.

I would like to utilize our space for magical session and growth, that’s my vision.

If you’re interested, email me:

All my love! thanks to you.



How we created a new vision : 9 days ago

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On the 20th July we started with confronting our truths, and making a list for a new Home!

On the 21st July we viewed a home with : everything on the list :

Easy Access, Electricity and Water, full 3 g signal coverage, low maintenance, pet friendly.

We focused together on what we needed.

We asked the Universe to supply our need, we sent Energy using Reiki signs and prayed.

The universe doesn’t give you what you want, it does give you what you need. *Robin Sharma

Our focused intentions were heard and we will be moving on 26 th August 2015 to a lovely space.

Grateful for all the soul growth of hardship, coldness, sacrifice, distance, hard work and

intense test, to know, we needed to grow ourselves to reach this point.

Thank you again to everyone for their love, support, and laughter! on this journey.

Bless you!


** Some pictures of our new Home!


A new vision = We are moving !



It is time for a NEW vision = New reality

20 th July 2015 !     The start of a NEW vision

On the evening of 20th July, we went to bed feeling relieved that we had spoken our truth and

we needed to move forward.

We created a list of what we needed.

The List :

3 bedroom house with space

2 bathrooms


A garage


Easy Internet access : 3 G

Easy road access : Tar

Easy access to shops

Pet friendly

Quiet area

On the 21st July we visited Sandy at Phuzamoya at Dr Ian Players Farm in the Karkloof.

Sandy is a friend of Pippa Griffin who suggested we meet and introduce ourselves.

We met Sandy and she showed us the house, and we instantly clicked with her and the house.


The house is being painted and cleaned currently. Having all my questions answered by Sandy, it was time to

contact Pippa to Rent the House.


I left the house,  feeling elated and excited at the possibility of moving.


I contacted Pippa for the cost and the application form. I completed it on the 22 July 2015.


Later that afternoon, I was approved as a tenant! On the 23 July we advised Jeff and Louise of our intention to leave, at the End of August 2015, explaining where we are at. They accepted our honesty and decision.


On the 24 July 2015, I paid some of the deposit and set the intention of moving and starting in a new space.

The house has electricity and good water. It is on tar road and 20 minutes from Howick, easy access.

Carl Bronner, Jeff, Mike Beresford and Vick Shaw has all kindly offered assistance to move us at the end of August 2015.

We appreciate the way that our friends, family and acquaintances have supported us in our uncomfortable zone.


It has challenged us, we have become closer, we have grown as people and look forward to learning more in our new space!


See You at :

Phuzumayo : Drive out of Howick on the tar road, at Glassworks sign, turn left, then

Left at the gate, keep Left!     See Pink House!

See you soon! In a closer, warmer space!


I will be at Satori farm until the end of August 2015!


Thank you


Colleen and WP


What to do when your lifelong dream turns into a bit of a Nightmare!



I am a city girl!

I am sorry but I cant live in a wooden cabin, up high in the foothills of the Drakensberg, (in Hawaii maybe…)

Our dream of building a home, we have envisioned, created, sent energy and kept it alive for 7 years. Seven years of hoping for a space to build our own home, in the form of a “green”house, from earth materials, our year in India at the Auroville Earth Institude reaffirmed this for us.

Events and circumstances that unravelled has brought us to Satori farm, thinking this is it!

It being: Build a house and create a healing space.

As days became colder, we became busier, for survival.

At sunrise we chop wood to heat the cabin, to make tea and breakfast. Our day starts in the cold. Having wood is essential to heat and comfort however, this isn’t an easy task either. We need to order wood at least 2 weeks in advance and pay extra for delivery, due to the distance.

The distance in itself is challenging. Due to unexpected car problems, we were stranded for 16 days. I always wanted to be a hobbit but it sucks.

Survival? Which starts with sunrise and ends with us banking the fire for the night. Homesteading may seem noble but I found it to be very very hard!

We had to admit to ourselves that our dream was seeming like a nightmare and ask ourselves whether this is in anyway making us happy? Or feel good?   It wasn’t …

 All I want to do is live my life purpose as a healer/ therapist, assist others to heal. All Willem wants to do is paint! As a artist and create joy on canvas. The 5 months out here has made us realize that we can but we don’t want to………!   D i s a s t e r ?


Once we agreed! To put our EGOS aside on the

20 th JULY and together we set the intent together and recreated a NEW list and Vision of what we NEEDED!


We combined prayer, intention, energy for a new start.


THANK YOU to All the people who SUPPORTED, Encouraged, Assisted, who didn’t say NAY!

Who helped along the Way!

Thank you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A note to my future self

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Dear Colleen!

A note to my future self! with lotsa laughter.

You will be offered a wooden cabin, to live off the grid!  = Don’t do it.

You will miss the comforts of warmth, a hot bath, a quick movie on your pc, don’t say yes.

The wooden cabin will be airy, above, below, and at the sides, you will sleep with 3 duvets

and a husband. *(no comfort)

You will have no free time. Your chores will be dishes, laundry, shopping,

cleaning, chopping wood. The snoozes you used to have and free leisure

time will be no more.

You ll be too tired to socialize, you ll be busy from sunrise to sunset,

surviving. . . .

You will have silence, peace and quiet, but that’s the Only free thing.

Everything else from Cell phone reception to hot water will be harder, my


Embrace discomfort, learn to appreciate the little things,

and focus on growing you.

Recreate Your vision board.

Recreate your reality.

Change you.

….. a New Journey begins. . .


Its not easy being green……. (we’re not)



I have been thinking about this blog for about a week.

I ask that you read it with a big sense of humour!  I will reveal some interesting truths.

Its not easy being green! Well, we are not green. I was busy reconciling the cost

of living off the grid:

We spent R300 to 500 a week on petrol for the car and generator.


drive to the shop, to get the petrol for your car and generator. = Not green.

We buy 2 l of paraffin, which cost R25 every 2 weeks, = not green.

We buy gas for the stove R180, gas for the heater R180, gas for the

gas geyser R420 = Not green.

We spent R380 on having wood delivered plus coal R125 to keep warm  = Not green.

Living off the grid cost as much as having the services of Eskom delivered by

flicking the switch.

I feel bad as I KNOW the this is not a healthy carbon footprint for me/ us.

What has this taught me?

Sometimes, the universe gives you uncomfortable lessons, ie. like not

having a car for 16 days.

Having a very air conditioned cabin, you choose to sleep with 3 duvets

and hug your wood stove everyday to keep warm.

Sometimes you run out of gas or the gas geyser doesn’t want to co operate

so its basin baths or cold showers, you endure and learn.

You learn, grow and endure, on a spirit level, I can change my feelings and response to it.



How to find your balance?

How to find your balance ?



When I started out on this journey of eating healthier, exercising,

doing weights, yoga and meditation, I was extreme in my attitude.

I cut out wheat, diary, potatoe and egg for 8 months which meant that

All joy from my diet was gone.

A joyless diet, since I don’t drink alcohol, I don’t take drugs, or eat meat or chicken, you can see my diet was very bland.

Reduced to stir fried rice, soups, tuna salad and steamed spinach.

It is like I became a bitter vegetarian.

:-(  no fun, extreme, hard core pain in my own ass type of person.

This year has taught me many things! first off!

Chips with no msg and chocolates are one of my favourite snacks in moderation,

I can moderate this and not BINGE by eating the whole slab of chocolate or eating the whole bag of chips.

I have disciplined to look at them in the cupboard and not be driven by its stimulants.

(they used to make me hyperactive)

I believe that finding your balance is YOUR own personal Journey, as

It has been mine. I start my day off with a smoothie but if its freezing cold

I would rather eat homemade bread with flaxseed, sunflower seeds and sesame seeds

with a avocado pear on it, it is comforting and warming and nourishing for my body.

I stock up with fruits of apples, bananas, pineapple, passion fruit pears and nuts.

At about 3pm, we have fruit and some nuts to boost our body.

We had lunch at about 12pm which would be sushi or stir fry or soup or

Something warming. My point is no one can tell you what will keep you balanced and sane, it is a INSIDE job and your decision.

For instance, I cannot be a vegan, I have no problems with vegans, but

I don’t have the bottomless budget of the expensive diet.

(I have a friend who spends R11000 on vegan food alone)

A bucket of nuts are R90 which last me a week, but if I buy 8 cans of tuna, it gives me 8 different dishes to eat and delicious protein.

I am a vegetarian who eats fish and this really works for me. When I didn’t include fish or eggs in my diet, I felt fatigued all the time, so I decided if my body needs it, I will eat it.

I am not a squiemish vegetarian, I can fish and will happily kill the fish,

Clean it, fry it and eat it.   I give thanks for the spirit of the fish and I

believe that it will also sustain my body.

A good person ideally is known by the fruits of their life and living consciously and being aware of your carbon footprint and your usage of Animal products is a good way to live.

It is better to conscious about your body and loving your body and doing your best, rather than swinging like a pendulum from one extreme to another. (like I used to be)

Excluding JOY from your Diet and life is not healthy, in fact it is EGO based and not spirit based, because ideally LOVING yourself should be the

Scale which you USE to make decisions about you and NOTHING else.


Find your balance, eat the cookie, but go walking.

Drink the wine but do yoga and drink water with every drink.

Eat the bread but detox regularly with green smoothies.

Find your balance to loving your body and living your spirit.


All my love

Colleen van Heerden



What are you like when adversity comes?

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What are you like when adversity comes ?

My week of adversity started at the beginning of July 2015, it was cold in the cabin, really cold, we

ran out of wood, which meant that I gathered wood from the forest everyday to keep warm.

I did order wood from the supplier but due to other work request, I was on the waiting list.

I had organised for a friend to deliver wood, but he was stuck in Durban with no money to get

to the Midlands. So forest wood it was and talking to the tree spirits. Seven days later the wood was

delivered as well as the wood from a friend, the wood is now neatly stacked and ready for chopping.


Last Thursday our car broke down in Howick at Greendale acres spar. We recently had it serviced at

Riverside mechanical repairs in Howick, I called the mechanic, Brian, he came out and discovered the

Oil and water had mixed and the head cylinder was blown in some way or another. We managed to

start the car and drive it back to the workshop. We had enough groceries at the time to get by.

Brian happily delivered us home, groceries and all. (thank you Brian)


By Wednesday, we were running out of groceries and gas for the geyser, we checked with the

mechanic who was sourcing a cylinder head and bolts, he had found them by Thursday and by

Friday we were optimistic about having our car back.

No gas for the geyser meant cold showers which I have had 2 of, it isn’t pleasant, comforting, loving

or kind, it is essential if you dirty and just need to get clean.

We had asked our neighbour Joe to get some petrol for our generator, so we could keep doing laundry, she kindly helped us out. *(thank you Joe) Joe delivered this to us.

On Friday, we were out of gas, no hot water, petrol was almost over and groceries were no more.

Desperate, we got a lift into town with Nicola on Friday morning. We happily dropped our gas bottles at Thokans with our Jerry can for petrol, enthusiastic that our car would be fixed.

We arrived at the workshop at 11am, Brian advised us, that he needed 2 hours to test drive, clean and

Tighten things up. Well, we shopped in town, got groceries, ate lunch and headed back, by this time

another problem had sprung up regarding the car. We waited many hours for the car to be ready.

At 6pm, he said ok, its done! We smiling left Howick, headed to the Spar for bread and headed to Thokans.

I had whats app’d Anisa and kindly asked if we could collect the gas and petrol after hours

as we would not have made it on time. They opened Thokans for us and assisted kindly. (thank you Hassan)

We are on the dirt road happily driving and the car dies, dead, no power, nothing.

We sms’d the mechanic, so we are in the road and both just disappointed, I burst out crying

from shock and Willem Says what now?

Next option, we called Louise and Jeff and asked them to come tow us home.

It is after 7pm, it is dark and towing at night is super dangerous.

Jeff comes out and looks at the car, first gives us a lecture and then tows us.

If you know our road, it is a steep road and not very comfortable for towing.

By this time, I am at the end of my patience, I am just emotionally stressed out,

I look for my rescue remedy and just keep putting the solution in my mouth to just stay calm.

I hop into Jeff’s car as the stress of towing is to much for me in our car. (thank you Jeff and Louise)

Willem and Jeff tow the car and about 35 minutes later, something pops,

the bracket holding the tow rope came off and the fan and the radiator got damaged.

I just laughed, I really just want to get home, have a nice cup of tea, a hot shower and be home.

Jeff reties the tow rope to something else. We eventually make it home, safely.

To inform the mechanic Brian well, we home but damage has been done, he advises us

He will be here in the morning to assist.

We offload the groceries, petrol, gas bottles, and I fall apart in tears, the day was much too much for me.

Willem struggled to get the gas geyser on, so we had tea, went to bed without a shower,

As it was dark and late. I packed away all of the groceries in the meantime and just calmed down.


On Saturday morning, Willem and I pushed the car so it would be easier to tow.

Brian and Anita arrived after 12pm to tow the car. He was kind and generous and very apologetic.

He removed the radiator and all parts that needed to be removed. He hooked up the tow rope and off

the car went to Howick again for further repairs which will be covered by Brian.

Jeff and Louise paid us a visit and Jeff managed to get the geyser started and Willem and I could

Have a hot shower. Louise offered assistance for shopping etc for next week. (thank you Louise)

This has been a very hard week for me, tiresome, stress filled and hard.

Today 12 July 2015, I did the Reiki Attunement for Willems Reiki masters.

I looked back on this week and see it was my biggest test ever of self mastering me.

Thank you for Brian, Jeff, Louise, Hassan, Nicola, Anita, Anisa for all the help and loving assistance.

Here is to a New week of less intensive challenges please……



My 44th Reiki Attunement, giving my first Reiki Master’s Attunement


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When I did my Reiki masters on the 13 September 2007, it completely

changed my life.

I stopped eating meat on this day. I could no longer tolerate caffeine or

unhealthy eating within myself. I read people, so sharply, it made

working in the corporate world oh so difficult, so I quit my job

that year, sold my worldly possessions and moved to India with

the intention of staying.

So, I have been back to India since, to learn and grow myself.

The adventure of my life has been Oh so amazing!

After 8 years of asking Willem to do his Reiki masters Attunement,

he has finally said Yes!  All of me is  : OH MY God!  &*((!  <  you get the picture.

I asked my Reiki Master : What can I expect, it was like I could feel her grinning!

and she answered : Everyone is different!   Just be strong! Be you! ((( She wished to be a fly on the wall)))

Reiki master Humour!

So on Sunday 12 July 2015, I will be doing Willem’s Reiki Masters attunement!

and On MONDAY, we will be married 16 years!

What an adventure hey?

Am I scared! yes! am I going to do it! Most definitely YES!
Wishing you love on your journey of healing! May it be Just as amazing.


Ho ópono pono : The Hawaiian forgiveness ritual as the key to your life’s fulfillment


How to Practice Ho’oponopono in Four Simple Steps

Have you heard of the Hawaiian therapist who cured an entire ward of criminally insane patients, without ever meeting any of them or spending a moment in the same room? It’s not a joke. The therapist was Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len. He reviewed each of the patients’ files, and then he healed them by healing himself. The amazing results seem like a miracle, but then miracles do happen when you use Ho’oponopono, or Dr. Len’s updated version called Self I-Dentity Through Ho’oponopono (SITH). I had the pleasure of attending one of his lectures a few years ago and started practicing Ho’oponopono immediately. The results are often astounding. Do you need a miracle?

What you might wish to understand is how this can possibly work. How can you heal yourself and have it heal others? How can you even heal yourself?

Why would it affect anything “out there”? The secret is there is no such thing as “out there” – everything happens to you in your mind. Everything you see, everything you hear, every person you meet, you experience in your mind. You only think it’s “out there” and you think that absolves you of responsibility. In fact it’s quite the opposite: you are responsible for everything you think, and everything that comes to your attention. If you watch the news, everything you hear on the news is your responsibility. That sounds harsh, but it means that you are also able to clear it, clean it, and through forgiveness change it.

There are four simple steps to this method, and the order is not that important. Repentance, Forgiveness, Gratitude and Love are the only forces at work – but these forces have amazing power.

The best part of the updated version of Ho’oponopono is you can do it yourself, you don’t need anyone else to be there, you don’t need anyone to hear you. You can “say” the words in your head. The power is in the feeling and in the willingness of the Universe to forgive and love.

Step 1: Repentance – I’M SORRY

As I mention above, you are responsible for everything in your mind, even if it seems to be “out there.” Once you realize that, it’s very natural to feel sorry. I know I sure do. If I hear of a tornado, I am so full of remorse that something in my consciousness has created that idea. I’m so very sorry that someone I know has a broken bone that I realize I have caused.

This realization can be painful, and you will likely resist accepting responsibility for the “out there” kind of problems until you start to practice this method on your more obvious “in here” problems and see results.

So choose something that you already know you’ve caused for yourself? Over-weight? Addicted to nicotine, alcohol or some other substance? Do you have anger issues? Health problems? Start there and say you’re sorry. That’s the whole step: I’M SORRY. Although I think it is more powerful if you say it more clearly: “I realize that I am responsible for the (issue) in my life and I feel terrible remorse that something in my consciousness has caused this.”

Step 2: Ask Forgiveness – PLEASE FORGIVE ME

Don’t worry about who you’re asking. Just ask! PLEASE FORGIVE ME. Say it over and over. Mean it. Remember your remorse from step 1 as you ask to be forgiven.

Step 3: Gratitude – THANK YOU

Say “THANK YOU” – again it doesn’t really matter who or what you’re thanking. Thank your body for all it does for you. Thank yourself for being the best you can be. Thank God. Thank the Universe. Thank whatever it was that just forgave you. Just keep saying THANK YOU.

Step 4: Love – I LOVE YOU

This can also be step 1. Say I LOVE YOU. Say it to your body, say it to God. Say I LOVE YOU to the air you breathe, to the house that shelters you. Say I LOVE YOU to your challenges. Say it over and over. Mean it. Feel it. There is nothing as powerful as Love.

That’s it. The whole practice in a nutshell. Simple and amazingly effective.

Article by dcole


From: the ONLINE laughter University


Inner child healing : Do it yourself or come for Reiki ?


Inner Child Healing Meditation:

Growing up was hard, I always expected humans to be more kind and loving than what they were!

This has left me feeling disappointment, for a big part of my life.

I have for the last 6 months started working on my inner child. I do this everyday before sunrise.

I visualize myself from the time of conception to age 5, 10, 15, 20, 25, 30, 35, 39.

For every aspect of myself, I fill with white light and love, adding a blue shield for protection and a purple light for more love, this has changed my view of everything.

Learning to self heal and meditate has made me calmer.

I have become quieter and I have had many realizations.

If you are a Reiki master and you can send the masters sign to yourself in the same way, adding the 3 Level 2 signs and then sealing it all together.

When you have completed this, you can start at the Base chakra and end at the Crown chakra filtering all the SIGNS through each chakra.


This will assist your inner healing process and to a Higher level.


If You’d like to know more: please email me:   or

Book a Reiki session, it does change you on the inside.


Lotsa Love

Colleen van Heerden



How to A’s your exams?



How to A’s your exams?

I write this from my own experience, I personally hated exams not because of the subjects but because of the human tension, anxiety and feeling other peoples emotions, that was my main stress!

I have learnt as a empath, how to cope and use gemstones, prayer and focus to harness this energy and become wiser.

Last year, I assisted a matric student to gain 4 A’s in her subjects, this was not without effort on her part, she studied every moment possible and learnt to focus.

First things first, Study! And know your subjects well.

Next, come for a reiki session so you are relaxed and at ease.

Next, get the following gemstones, to be worn whenever you write exams:

Obsidian and Hematite : So you are protected and don’t feel other people’s emotions.

Next : To help you focus: Buy the following (Cosmic crystal shop in Howick)

Smoky Quartz : Enhances potency, makes you positive and comfortable in your body.

Citrine: Excellent for Joy, self esteem and concentration.

Aragonite: Useful for studying and exams in focus.

Blue Lace Agate : Enhance Mental function.

Amethyst : Focus, love.

When you are outside, take a moment to ground yourself to the earth, tie a rope around a huge rock, visualize this, fill your aura with white light and a blue shield.

When you are at your desk, close your eyes, SAY a Prayer:

I tap into the ENERGY field of the person who set the Paper, Guide me to

Intuitively know the Answer.

You are now ready to do your best and follow your gut feelings.

Keeping warm : The Traditional way! : Wood/coal stove


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While visiting in Bethlehem, we decided to purchase a wood/coal stove to heat up our space.

We decided to pop into a shop in Bethlehem, upon arrival we saw the last stove on the shelf, it weighs about 75kg and it fit smugly into our car!~We happily drove it home when we returned, looking forward to warm nights and warm mornings.

I was practising and familiarising myself with the stove on Saturday. You need to keep it stocked with wood and coal to keep your space, warm and snug.

I decided to try my hand at cooking. Cooking on a wood stove, ensures a tasty meal because it is slow cooked!

and has so much more flavour.

I now know why you had a “maid” to just man the stove because it is a full time job.

To keep the fire going, you need thinly chopped wood. (first chop lots of it)

We are using anthracite at the moment which cost R135 for 40kg, (obtainable in Merrivale) however,

you need to keep blowing air into it,  ensuring that there is a good Airflow for it to burn.

I made delicious fish curry and rice, this was no easy task, it took me about 2 hrs to cook.

I had many realizations while cooking, it definitely teaches you patience and you are warm and

Well entertained by your stove.

My granny never had a coal stove, we always had electricity, so this was a real challenge for me,

To keep myself from putting on the gas and cooking it faster.

I guess that’s why “man” invented things like gas to cook on, because it is so much faster.

I did enjoy the experience of cooking on our wood stove and I will probably do it again.

The food was delicious, a little bit more manual labour than I thought, but well worth it.

I was kept warm and snug during the process, so keeping warm the traditional way wasn’t too bad.

Journeying on …….off the grid adventure.


Ps! Yes I miss Eskom and my warm electric blanket on my bed!  I have 2 hot water bottles

now. . . . :-)






Keri’s Kahuna Journal

Apr 2014


My last kahuna session came at a time when I probably needed it the most. My confidence was a little low and my entire being had been battered in the one of the worst ways possible for a creative person. Also, I was fresh out of my day paying job and into my second day of freelancing. Can you smell the fear? Yes, it was almost edible.

Colleen at Midlands House of Healing picked it up almost straight away when I arrived for my sixth Kahuna session – we sat down for a chat over freshly made sushi before she set to work on me. After a delicious massage including not only the usual kahuna techniques, but a bit of hot stone too (biggest hot stone fan over here), I was left floating and drooling – ready for some tea and some firm advice.

Colleen put on her best mothering suit on and explained to me the third principle of Kahuna called “Makia”, which translated means “energy flows where attention goes”. In life, no matter what you do, you will always be critiqued. Sometimes it will be good criticism, sometimes it will be constructive, and sometimes it will be bad. ALWAYS FOCUS ON THE GOOD. If you base your entire self worth on a negative criticism or experience, you will allow fear to take over… and we all know the terrible and terminal illnesses that fear can bring on. Having said that, we also shouldn’t be too afraid of fear, as it can be a worthwhile tool and important catalyst in getting things done the best we can. But if you do fail at something, or get negative feedback, do not focus all your energy on it. You will break. Be as objective as you can and realise that you cannot always please every person on the planet. Acknowledge the criticism, fix it if you can, and then focus your energy on the good. Do not let criticism close your heart. Remember past compliments and praise, look over your best work and your favourite moments, and remember that you ARE worthy of all the goodness in the universe. Everyone is – and there is more than enough of it to go around! And don’t be shy on complimenting others and sharing their awesomeness either. The more you give out, the more you receive – so don’t hold out!

You are freaking fabulous and you are good at what you do. Swim in your glory. Spoon in it. Make spaghetti out of it.

As for my fears of going freelance…

HAVE BALLS OF STEEL. (Colleen’s exact words). Realise that you wanted this, and you are doing it so that you can do what you love every day. Remind yourself of this daily. Recognise that what you’re doing is Your thing – it’s what you’ve been dreaming of and working towards all your life, and you know your shit. Don’t over-give of yourself because you think that you are not worthy – this is the freelancer’s biggest hurdle. Charge for your hours and charge enough for you to survive on. You also need to put petrol in your car to attend meetings, not to mention putting food in your mouth. Recognise and accept that you are no longer a salaried person – you work, you get paid, you live. You are fully responsible for your survival now – and every minute counts. No more wasting time on social media or chatting to colleagues over a leisurely smoke break or spending half an hour making tea in the kitchen. You are now able to be flexible for yourself and and for your creative peak times – if you work better in the evening, work in the evening. You are free to work when best suits your body clock and inspiration barometer, not when your boss says so.  Make it work for you.

(Please note, although it sounds like I am addressing you, I’m actually addressing myself. But  please feel free to soak up whatever you may feel will benefit you.)

These are some of my notes from my session with Colleen.

kahuna diary

To book your own session with Midlands House of Healing, email Colleen on or text her on 084 603 0604 to book an appointment.

Saying goodbye to Keri @ midlands musings

Keri and I met 3 or is it 4 years ago, at the time she was on her way to a island with

Andy, they were dating and well! She was young, free and wild! Keri and I have

journeyed together. Keri grew as a person, igniting her spirit of writing,

of being free, and finding her space of being an awesome HUMAN being!@

She is one of my favourite favourite people because she’s an aquarian like me,

human, funny, beautiful and she will be missed by me! She made me laugh

loudly! so much, and so many times!   She is one of my JOY angels for sure!

Keri : You are leaving a BIG hole in my heart! I suck at saying goodbye,

but I know, you will grow where you are planted because You’re a weed or a fungi

its in YOUR nature to be Awesome. I will miss you! always : a space in my heart

for you!


Some of the Awesome blogs She wrote!


winter hibernation

I’m in a funny place at the moment. I went to see my earth angel, Colleen at Midlands House of Healing yesterday and, as always, a session with her brings on some introspection. As an Aquarian, a child of water and air, winter does not always sit too well with me. I miss early sunrises and warm runs at 5am. I miss late evening chats on the verandah. I even miss the rain and the Midlands summer mist (well, if I’m indoors, that is). I miss skinny dips in the pool at sunset and I miss sleeping naked under a thin sheet. I miss skin, man. I miss the buzz of being alive in a warm, active body and I miss a mind crazy-full of ideas and dreams.

You see, right now, I’m in limbo, or hibernation if you will… for a number of reasons, some of which I may be able to share with you soon. I’m 67 days away from an overseas holiday which we have been planning since last year and which I can honestly say I day dream about at least seventy-eleven times a day. I’m halfway through a 12 week fitness programme with Kayla Itsines (PS: well done to all you ladies who’ve started the journey over the past two weeks – you’re going to love it!), and while I have seen so much change and progress, I’m eager to get to the end where I’m hoping to be strong enough to be able to start boxing… or at least do a proper pull-up. I’m chugging along with my freelance work and although I know I need a few more clients, at the same time I don’t want to sign any up and then be like, “oh hey, I’m going travelling for a month – hope that’s cool”. Freelance may “free” up when you choose to work in the day, but it’s not too kind on entire holidays away. One needs to prepare rather carefully for those, especially when you’re a one-man team. And as for the other unmentionable, well that could change the course of everything.

Patience, little one, patience.

So what do we do when we are feeling the winter limbo?

We breathe.

We take stock and we give thanks.

We keep at it.

We are kind on ourselves.

We nurture our bodies.

We take it slow.

We rest.

We write. We paint. We draw. We play. We laugh.

We prepare for tomorrow while appreciating today.

We shave and moisturise our legs. And paint our toenails. Even if no one is going to be seeing them.

I hope you all have a good week and that you are looking after yourselves in every way. Thank you for reading. Thank you for your constant support. You all mean the world to me. Really, really, pinkie promises. xxx

4 dae van Afrikaans : Bethlehem kuier

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Ek was vier dae in Bethlehem, in die Vrystaat. Ek was laas daar toe Willem se ouma begrawe was.

Ek het in Bethlehem gebly in 2009, tot 2010. Dit was my eerste twee jaar van terapeut wees.

Dit was verskriklik moeilik vir my want, ek was van die Kaap af. Kaapstad is ‘n internasionale

Stad, ‘n mens sien nie kleur nie, maar mense is maar verskillend.

Ons almal het ons eie beginsels, ons eie geloofoortuigings en sienswyse.

Ons het hierdie naweek vir familie gaan kuier, dit was die beste vir my as persoon.


Ek het myself gate-uit geniet, ons het baie gekuier en gelag.

Ek het ook 5 “body repairs” gedoen vir familie en dit was baie bevredigend.

As persoon, het ek baie gegroei, ek het anders na mense gekyk, en dinge beter verstaan.

Ons het ‘n Rotary skaapkraal fees bygewoon, daar was baie vleis, terwyl ek ‘n vegetarier is. Ek het gelukkig slaai, groente em brood gehad om te eet, dit het my nie bekommer nie. Ek glo dat elke persoon het sy doel, sy pad, sy eie karma besluit. Hierdie keer, kon ek nie ander mense se energie so sterk voel soos tevore nie, want ek het halfedelgesteentes, soos Obsidian, Pietersite en Ulexir gedra, en ek het besluit om in my eie vel te bly!

Ek het baie aan myself gewerk, en baie geleer van die Afrikaanse kultuur.

Die lekkerste naweek ooit in die Vrystaat.

Back to English, before my brain pops!



Change : Staring at my next 43rd Reiki Attunement

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This week, I will be teaching a REIKI level 2 Course on Thursday, it would be my 43rd

Reiki Attunement as a Reiki Master. This journey, has just evolved me as

a person, a Teacher, healer, therapist, blogger, wife!

I have changed my life since 2008, to live a more spiritual existence.

I meditate more, I am focused as a therapist, I have started doing 4 handed

Reiki sessions which are pure bliss.

I have moved house this year and I have gone off the grid which was a big change!

It has helped me grow, spiritually and emotionally as a person.

I definitely recommend learning REIKI and becoming a Practitioner to anyone.

Live life as a adventure!  a journey of Divine Synchronicity and LOVE!

Start embarking on a fulfilled soul journey!

All my LOVE!



Unseen treasures of living off the grid.

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1. Silence: We have lots of silence, we can hear our own thoughts and complete our own

sentences without interruptions. No distractions of noise : no tv, no radio, no refrigerator.

2. We are in sync with nature. We are awake at dawn and we go to bed at dusk.  We get to see

the full moon and the stars which are spectacular. We hear the owls at night and we saw

the buck come out of the forest at sunset, what a magical experience.

3. Chopping wood is an art. I am learning to master it. Willem has taught me how to pick the

perfect log, how to identify the cracks and how to aim the axe, so the wood splits perfectly.

We make a fire at sunrise and sunset, I love it. I actually love learning how to Master

chopping wood and making a fire. I believe every woman should be able to sustain herself,

by keeping warm and being independent.

4. Communication: Willem and I communicate better, we have a deeper intimacy and understanding

and it has really brought us closer together.

5. Equality : We are able to be partners, either to support each other, or assist each

other in our goals, chores or life purpose. This means if Willem is busy chopping wood,

I will do the dishes or laundry or cooking. We share chores and communicate what needs

to be done and we act on it.

6. Laughter : We have learnt to laugh more! We make each other laugh and share funny thoughts,

    ideas and we keep a positive outlook.

7. We have music playing or we watch a movie on the big screen, so we often comment on the movie

     or music and enjoy the entertainment of it.

8. Reading : We are reading more. We will quietly sit at the table and read our books,

      gaining more knowledge and sharing particular paragraphs with each other. I just completed

      the Horse whisperer, wow! what a book.

9. Awareness: We have become very aware of the use of POWER. ie. Solar panels and generator usage.

    We ensure our solar panels are fully charged for lights at night and ensure our cell phones are

     fully charged by midday, as this is when solar panels will charge the fastest. We use about R150 of

     petrol a week on the generator which runs the blender everyday, the pc, the washing machine and

      our 3 g signal booster. I think this is pretty good!   It has taught us to be more disciplined with

      scheduled “signal” time and cell phone time.

10. Calmness of Spirit : We are no longer phased by the world. Our world of simplicity is

          calmer, we are gentler in spirit and with ourselves.

11. Less is MORE!   having downscaled our home to what we need and not what we want,

      we are happy with less. Life is a journey, we need to embrace all of it.

12. We have become more disciplined with eating healthier with more fruit and less

       processed food.  Fresh is better.

Like : Robin Sharma says :

Life doesn’t give you what you ask for – but it always gives you what you need!

Love to you all!


Knowing you’re amazing, and Living it!

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Knowing you’re amazing and Living it!

Well its 2015! I started on my journey in 2004 with my first Reiki session,

from there on, it has been conscious living and hard lessons to learn,

but…I have enjoyed it! every bit of adventure.

I have lived in Cape Town, Bethlehem, Midlands and India. I have

started a Healing practice in 2009, and I have flourished ever since.

Serving my life purpose as a healer / therapist has truly grown me as

a person and helped me evolve.

What started as a deeper seeking of knowledge, has progressed

into a life long adventure.

I have made friends from all over the world.

I continue to meet people who inspire my spirit.

I am amazing!  I totally love being me.

I am imperfect and totally human and it isn’t

my waist size or shoe size that makes me

amazing, it is my Attitude to keep

serving my Spirit as a Healer.

Knowing I’m amazing and

that wherever my path takes me,

I will grow and evolve into

what I am meant to be.

So embark on a new journey and

truly start living your True Self.

Live your spirit.

Diet : An Inner Cleanser



You are what you eat?

Currently, a diet that is working well for me is :

Green Smoothies in the morning : 2 spinach leaves, banana, papaya, soaked dates/ nuts,

mango juice and water. Followed by 1 piece of rye toast to boost my body.

Lunch will be a tuna salad, with fresh lettuce, tomatoe, cucumber, pineapple, olives, feta,

avocado pear with olive oil and balsamic vinegar.

Snack on pineapple, papaya, kiwi, bananas or nuts.

Dinner is a stir fry of fresh vegetables or a sandwich.

Keeping rehydrated with water, green tea or peppermint tea which  is my favourite.

I have been following my balance and this is what works for me.

Find your diet, cleanse often and feel lighter and healthier, more you.

Lotsa Love



Money, money, money = Always sunny in a rich mans world


Money, Money, money, money ! as of late, everyone is saying : I have no MONEY!

MONEY is LOVE or lack thereof. If your heart is open and energy is FLOWING, you

are giving, blessing, releasing, loving, being = You attract the same Abundance.

Abundance : Where to start ?

Wake up at SUNRISE, go for a walk, start grounding yourself to the Core of the Earth,

fill your Aura with light and a blue shield.

Start a YOGA routine, move and be flexible in your body.

Drink Water, yes Water, it is good for your body, it aids detoxing.  (not coke)

Remove stimulants such as Smoking, Caffeine, Alcohol, Sugar, Chocolates,

Msg, Fast foods, meats, chicken, and eat clean vegetables and fruit for a week, feel the change.

Clean out – Give away what you don’t need.

Detox your emotions : Write down all anger, fear, grudges, against whomever, burn the page,

then forgive, bless, and MOVE on .

Find your purpose !   A empty life is a empty spirit. Quit the job you hate.

Affirm you : LOVEEEEEEE   you, say NO! and do things that makes you happy. Quit the self sacrificing,

martyrdom. *(enough already)

Enjoy a Pleasure filled Life    !     Laughter, joy cannot be bought, Smile often.

Chanting is essential part of my life! I have been singing a hawaiian chant of abundance everyday, find your one.

Love is the KEY to MONEY!   if you LOVE what you do….. Do it…. the MONEY will following ……

I so love what I do……..



Unconditional Love : 1. Changing your partner & Lack of Acceptance of self

Unconditional Love :  1. Changing your partner & Lack of Acceptance of self

LOVE !@ ?    We crave it, we long for it, we will travel miles for it. YET!

When we have it, we neglect it. We damage it with our words, our disappointments,

our expectations.

When I met my partner, I too wanted to change him, HOWEVER!

we chose to both change each other for the most positive and for the

Highest GOOD! We also chose to accept each other 100%.

That means if your partner has a bad day, don’t absorb it, be supportive with a HUG.

If your partner doesn’t eat well nutritionally, give him smoothies or raw juices.

Invest in keeping your partner healthy.

Willem did yoga, drank herbal teas and honey, rock climbed and was a vegetarian

when we met. I ate everything from Macdonalds to KFC to Spur, I enjoyed

junk food and fried chops, bacon and everything unhealthy.

I remember the first meal, he made me was stir fry and I called it “vommitted” food

as it all look raw to me.

Well, 16 years later, I am the vegetarian, the herbal tea drinker, the yoga do ér…..

The Universe knows what we need, your partner can be a catalyst for change,

but Ultimately, you need to do the INNER work of consciously changing you.

Disciplining you.

UNconditionally loving you.

If you love you, you will accept you and ALSO all of your partner.

CHANGE    : comes from Within, thats why we have free will……

YOU need to be happy, Joyful, loving, kind and gentle with yourself and your partner! that is

what   Love is about. . . . .

:LOVE  is the KEY!        if you not feeling it  : Break up, Move on, Heal    : don’t stay in a toxic

relationship that harms your spirit…..

All my love


Why I walk ? : 7 years later

May 12 2015 (22) May 12 2015 (27)

I started walking in 2009, it was Winter in Bethlehem, I returned from India, realizing I needed to

loose more weight. I first, jumped for 20 minutes on my trampolene so I could become fitter.

Walking now, has become my therapy.

I walk 6 days a week and even 7 days a week to connect with nature, to fill my body with the

amazing chi experience of Sunrise. I do my morning chanting and grounding.

I practise yoga, prayer, meditation and a letting go of yesterday.

I walk now because I love it.

I walk because I connect with my own higher self and its soothing to my soul.

Watching the Sunrise, I sometimes just hold my breathe, so I can share a breathe with the sun.

Being awake at dawn is such a magical experience for me. To  be aware, conscious and present

for a new day, its such a gift.

Start your day a new…. wake up at Sunrise and connect with Spirit….

It will change your life…..

Lotsa Love


L i v i n g & A four handed reiki session

L i v i n g      &   A four handed reiki session

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Today was very auspicious day for me. I introduced Colleen my 42nd Reiki Student to Isobel my 41st Student in Reiki.

We Reiki’d each other and had a awesome Lunch prepared by Wp van Heerden.

Life at Satori farm, has settled down, we have a house for our generator built with rammed earth.

Willem installed a PLUG and dug the wiring underground so we could use the generator anytime,

and it will also power the repeator for our 3G when the generator is running simultaneously.

It is certainly getting colder, so I started chopping wood and making fire in the morning before

I do yoga and do my normal walking routine.

Its been 4 weeks since my last Reiki Attunement and I can feel that I too have changed, learnt and grown

from this experience. My mind and spirit are looking at alternatives like adding specific gem stones

to a reiki session, such as Sugilite and Dioptase as they remove trauma and disease from the body,

how magical is that! I have been using it since I bought them from Leigh at the Crystal Shop in Howick.

It is amazing!  I am venturing into doing more body repairs : physical, and spiritually, to fulfill

my destiny of being a true healer.

Magic is out there, You have to find the part of you that says nothing is impossible and make that possible….

Rough Deepak Chopra quote !     I believe I am venturing into that………

All good this side! still loving living off the grid.

Lotsa love


My B I G gratitude list

My B I G gratitude list

First off, let me say, I am VERY HAPPY at Satori farm. I did not think that I would be

happy living off the grid, but I am. I am loving it …..

I am experiencing my body in a different way. I am learning that massage fit is

definitely not manual labour fit. I am have learnt that working manually is very good

for my Spirit, so I am grasping the art of chopping wood, making fire and enjoying it.

I am very grateful for Jeff and Louise, who have invited us to live at Satori farm. Thank you.

(and for Everything ….they have done! Thank you)

I am very grateful for : Carlene Bronner who moved us to Satori farm, with her amazing helper.

I am very grateful for : Katie Robinson who has taught me about friendship, and blessed us with doors for our new home.

I am very grateful for : Mike Beresford who used his TLB to level the land and dug our septic tank hole.

I am very grateful for : Jabu Schoeman in Howick who gave us a discount on one cubic meter of rough cut pine.

I am very grateful for : Kandy Slater for the windows for our new home.

I am very grateful for : Sam and Shine : endless advise.

I am very grateful for : Ross Janisch : for our plants   & Sally Anne Patterson for our plants .

I am very grateful for : Tarryn Grobler for assisting us….with manual labour.

I feel part of a community of caring, loving, people with big hearts and kindness.

I am  very happy here at Satori farm, my spirit is well. I feel fulfilled on so many levels!

Thank you Vodacom for 3 G!

Bless you with Abundance and love, THANK YOU !


Nurturing you through the Winter Months!


Yes Winter has arrived in the Midlands! May, June, July, we are blessed with Sunny days and freezing mornings and


I decided to look at ways to nurture my body through the winter, so here goes:

1. Drench my body in a nice lotion after a shower or bath. (no dry skin)

2. Go to sleep early, so I am well rested.

3. Chop wood and make a fire when its cold, every night, as it is so soothing.

4. Drink more tea: my favourite is peppermint tea from Woolworths at the moment.

5. Drink my 2 l of water at midday, because its warm then. (doing it now!)

6. Have my heaviest meal at lunch time.

7. Watch movies and cuddle more.

8. Cuddle : OFTEN.

9. Have a pile of books to read at my bedside table.

10. Keep the snacks to a limit : ie. one block of chocolate a day, if I need to. . .

11. Think of interesting treats like fried seeds in honey and mustard! my favourite.

12. Keep nuts on hand. Eat lotsa apples to keep my digestion good.

13. Drink Dietamacious Earth to keep my colon clean, everyday.

14. Walk at Sunrise.

15. Do Yoga before sunrise.

16. Meditate/ Visual : Abundance everyday.

17. Enjoy the SUN and soak it up, everyday

18. Re organise your wardrobe, less is more.

19. Get woolly warm socks.

20. Wear scarves for Winter.

21. Go for a reiki session / massage session!     (084 603 0604, call me)   I reiki me EVERYDAY!

Winter is just a season, lets enjoy the change, make it fun to embrace the cold and

Spring will be here soon!

3G Vodacom Signal : In Our House! whoop whoop!

IMG_20150504_132727 IMG_20150504_124309I am very excited while writing this blog! After complaining for 65 days everyday to VODACOM on

111 telephone number and on email, they have successfully

installed a cell signal booster in our home for FREE!

I am very happy, as this will run off our generator while we save for solar panels!

It is certainly life changing!

Thank you to Vodacom: Faizel Desai, Mbo the technician and Sidishta and Fred who left with

smiles after the installation!

I am so glad, I used my experience in the service industry to pursue my complaint.

Thank you to Mohammed Moosa my colleague in Cape town,  who took time out to investigate

this for me! You guys are amazing! Thank you !@

Bless you!


3 G @ Satori

A woman living in a Mans world ! :-(((

A woman living in a Mans world ! :-(((

I am a woman. I worked in a mans world, where I fulfilled the roles of    I have to, I must, I should,

any kindness, love, compassion was seen as a WEAKNESS! and obviously, used against me.

I have been treating a few woman who work in a corporate environment, they are empaths,

they feel other peoples pain and take responsibility for so many of their colleagues and

job stress’s that they forget to live their spirit.

As a woman, I can see the pattern.

We feel that being a woman or being feminine is a WEAKNESS and we suppress ourselves.

We wear pants instead of dress’s.

We are driven by a male energy of go go , do do and forget who you are, happily playing a role.

Long long long ago, woman led tribes, nations, people, we are the leaders of this world.

We don’t have to conform to the annoying boss.

We choose to have kids or not.

We choose to stay with a abusive partner or not.

We DECIDE, because we are powerful, spiritual, nurturing beings who

takes care of people. We bring forth balance to a imbalanced male dominated

system, which brings forth more unhappiness in this world.

STOP!   suppressing your female side, bring forth your GODDESSness!

Wear skirts, grow your hair, have pms days, say no often.

Refuse to conform to societies norms, they suck!

Make your own rules ladies! The world needs you…. and you need you!

All my love and sassyness.


Winter Insulation! b r r r r r

Winter is upon us! Well, it is cold everywhere! because its Winter!

We decided to insulate my studio with Styrofoam and seal all the cracks and air gaps in my studio,

so it is warm and toasty! and it is! You can get your hands on Polystyrene in Howick on 0710773063.

We had to seal our room and lounge area with expandable spray in foam, we found a cheaper

make of R90 a can in Howick and used 2 cans to do the job.

Next, we used black plastic to seal the bedroom floor and placed indian mats on

top of it, to keep the cold out. We also used throws on the walls and fleece at the windows

to keep the cold out.

We are more comfortable and less cold in our new space. We have a fire place with lots of wood,

so we will be toasty throughout the winter.

Day  65! Journeying on . . . .


Happy Workers day! “Grocery Shopping in South Africa : Midlands “

Today is WORKERS day, a South african public holiday, everyone has the day off,

except the cashiers at Pick ‘n Pay, Spar and Woolworths.

I always observe the energy in the shop, the energy at Pick and pay is filled with desperation,

a limit of survival, endless long queues, people chatting in the isle like long last friends,

shopping is an outing, a community project, thats what it feels like. Everyone is poor,

they are looking for bargains to make ends meet and to feed the endless mouths at home.

I then popped into Woolworths, a total different vibe, exuberance and lush living is the priority.

Flowers cost R159.99 for 3 tiny flowers on the stem. Breads, cheese’s, pies, comfort living is

promoted. There is no sense of desperation or need, it is just lavish and we have more than

enough, why not. I saw a mom and a baby buying one tin of milk and one bag of huggies,

to me, she felt more real than the rest. She has her priorities straight, her kid.

I then popped into Spar, they cater for everyone. There is no air of desperation or need.

It is a convenient store, it stocks everything from bread, to meat to chips. Its a store, for

I forgot something along the way, a quick pop in for a snack.

The staff are always friendly and efficient.

Workers day was created to enable people to rest, some still work on this day like any other,

choosing to earn a little extra.

South africa is complex, the extremes of both poverty and wealth are enormous.

Some struggle to meet,  their own needs, but others easily throw their excess into the

trash can, which could feed a small family.

Becoming more and more conscious of life’s priorities by living off the grid

and valuing what is true and real, opposed to what is not.

This is a controversial blog, I know, I am not judging, just observing life, outside of


Happy Workers Day!


What can you do in a day?

Tarryns visit  (9) Tarryns visit  (8) Tarryns visit  (7)Our day started with a beautiful sunrise on Saturday morning.

Willem, Tarryn and I had 3 missions :

1. create a garden, 2. do a rammed earth house for the generator,

3. insulate my healing studio.

It started with a whole lot of shovelling soil into a wheel barrow and shifting it to the garden spot,

this took about 30 minutes to do. We then had to move 2 very heavy wooden sleepers into the garden

to shape it. If you know, wooden sleepers are super heavy, heevinggggg  it into the garden was no easy task.

Next Willem and Tarryn replanted the herbs and shaped the garden.

Our next task was to shovel clay and ramm it into a shape with the mould that Willem constructed.

Our first attempt, was good but we forgot to add water to the mix.

Our second attempt, we shovelled clay plus cement, added water and made a good mixture.

We would shovel the mixture into the mould and RAMM it, layer for layer.

What were left with, is 2 walls, which are busy curing.

Our next task was to seal the “air”holes between the roof. We used an expandable foam

which we purchased from Mica in Howick. The foam expands and seals the area,

wonderful and easy.

We all slept well on Saturday evening, a good dose of Laughter and Joy was shared

and we were definitely a good team together.

Journeying on…..

Lotsa Love


When choosing a Reiki practitioner, what to look for?

569774a4d968d3d876c9055d40f41d68 My first Reiki session took place in 2004, my Teacher was Renee Fouche, she lived in

Green Point, she was a buddist and a very chilled, wise and  cool lady. I loved her energy and vibe.

Meeting her changed my life, she steered me to India, in particular Auroville which helped me

find my true self. She herself had lived in Auroville for a while and knew I could benefit from this


She was wise, knowledgable and  had a big sense of humour and we still connect sometimes,

and she has visited us in the Midlands.

When you choose a Reiki practitioner, things to look for:

Light in the eyes.

Heated hands / unnaturally warm hands

A calmness you cannot explain.

A deeper awareness.

Their life is calm and not filled with drama.

They speak truthfully and honestly.

SOBER lifestyle.

Practising Reiki, we live by a code.

We are accountable to the Universe for everything, our karma is always INSTANT.

I stopped eating meat on 13 Sept 2007 and chicken, I detox regularly, like everyday!

I am conscious about my life and my choices and how it affects the earth.

Choose your practitioner wisely!

Eskom Loadshedding = Conscious Awakening for you?

I have heard alot of complaints about Eskom load-shedding lately, from any person who has electricity.

I think that this is a Conscious awakening for many! Electricity supplied is not a bottomless supply.

The Earth has limited supplies and its resources are to be valued, appreciated and treasured.

I don’t have load shedding. I use solar panels for lights and for charging my cellular telephone.

We use a 2 kva generator for our washing machine, our computer, my blender and this makes

us aware and conscious of the amount of power we utilise.

Going off the grid is simple and easy?

You assess what your needs are ?

You need a hot shower everyday. Install a gas geyser.

You need to cook. Install a gas stove.

You don’t need a refrigerator as it is noisy, and stores left overs that no one wants to eat.

You need a fireplace to keep warm, install one.

You need wood, collect it from the forest.

I have become so in sync with nature while living here. ..

I need the sun to dry the laundry, to charge our solar panels, and to refresh my body.

I believe that living a simple life has made me more grateful and I experience gratitude

everyday for just being here.

Take a break from TV, Noise and the like, it might change your life.

All my love


Half a Healer = ?

Half a Healer = ?

Over the past few weeks, I have been working on people who have received Reiki Attunements

but due to FEAR, JUDGEMENT and Financial responsibilities, they have to keep

living separate lives.

I too lived a corporate life but I couldn’t be spiritual or authentic.

If you have told the Universe, you will be a healer, and you don’t the consequences

are many.

You absorb other peoples pain and eventually end up with a Unknown Disease, it saps your life force.

Living your path as a healer is imperative, there is NO UNDO button, no turning back, once

you have chosen the healing path. It is better for you to NOT venture down it,

if only to keep yourself in the closet.

As a Reiki healer you undertake to meditate, live by affirmations,

you also commit to nurturing, loving, caring and living in Harmony with

the Earth, all living beings and basic habits of eating meat will probably fall away.

You are different, so life will become different. You are connected to

a higher power which guides you and directs your life, called the Universe.

You will also be led by your own intuition and true self.

So, rather than be a half healer, take the plunge, destiny cannot be fought,

authenticity cannot  be bought and truth is true, it cannot be faked.

Choose your path wisely.


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