Money, money, money = Always sunny in a rich mans world


Money, Money, money, money ! as of late, everyone is saying : I have no MONEY!

MONEY is LOVE or lack thereof. If your heart is open and energy is FLOWING, you

are giving, blessing, releasing, loving, being = You attract the same Abundance.

Abundance : Where to start ?

Wake up at SUNRISE, go for a walk, start grounding yourself to the Core of the Earth,

fill your Aura with light and a blue shield.

Start a YOGA routine, move and be flexible in your body.

Drink Water, yes Water, it is good for your body, it aids detoxing.  (not coke)

Remove stimulants such as Smoking, Caffeine, Alcohol, Sugar, Chocolates,

Msg, Fast foods, meats, chicken, and eat clean vegetables and fruit for a week, feel the change.

Clean out – Give away what you don’t need.

Detox your emotions : Write down all anger, fear, grudges, against whomever, burn the page,

then forgive, bless, and MOVE on .

Find your purpose !   A empty life is a empty spirit. Quit the job you hate.

Affirm you : LOVEEEEEEE   you, say NO! and do things that makes you happy. Quit the self sacrificing,

martyrdom. *(enough already)

Enjoy a Pleasure filled Life    !     Laughter, joy cannot be bought, Smile often.

Chanting is essential part of my life! I have been singing a hawaiian chant of abundance everyday, find your one.

Love is the KEY to MONEY!   if you LOVE what you do….. Do it…. the MONEY will following ……

I so love what I do……..



Unconditional Love : 1. Changing your partner & Lack of Acceptance of self

Unconditional Love :  1. Changing your partner & Lack of Acceptance of self

LOVE !@ ?    We crave it, we long for it, we will travel miles for it. YET!

When we have it, we neglect it. We damage it with our words, our disappointments,

our expectations.

When I met my partner, I too wanted to change him, HOWEVER!

we chose to both change each other for the most positive and for the

Highest GOOD! We also chose to accept each other 100%.

That means if your partner has a bad day, don’t absorb it, be supportive with a HUG.

If your partner doesn’t eat well nutritionally, give him smoothies or raw juices.

Invest in keeping your partner healthy.

Willem did yoga, drank herbal teas and honey, rock climbed and was a vegetarian

when we met. I ate everything from Macdonalds to KFC to Spur, I enjoyed

junk food and fried chops, bacon and everything unhealthy.

I remember the first meal, he made me was stir fry and I called it “vommitted” food

as it all look raw to me.

Well, 16 years later, I am the vegetarian, the herbal tea drinker, the yoga do ér…..

The Universe knows what we need, your partner can be a catalyst for change,

but Ultimately, you need to do the INNER work of consciously changing you.

Disciplining you.

UNconditionally loving you.

If you love you, you will accept you and ALSO all of your partner.

CHANGE    : comes from Within, thats why we have free will……

YOU need to be happy, Joyful, loving, kind and gentle with yourself and your partner! that is

what   Love is about. . . . .

:LOVE  is the KEY!        if you not feeling it  : Break up, Move on, Heal    : don’t stay in a toxic

relationship that harms your spirit…..

All my love


Why I walk ? : 7 years later

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I started walking in 2009, it was Winter in Bethlehem, I returned from India, realizing I needed to

loose more weight. I first, jumped for 20 minutes on my trampolene so I could become fitter.

Walking now, has become my therapy.

I walk 6 days a week and even 7 days a week to connect with nature, to fill my body with the

amazing chi experience of Sunrise. I do my morning chanting and grounding.

I practise yoga, prayer, meditation and a letting go of yesterday.

I walk now because I love it.

I walk because I connect with my own higher self and its soothing to my soul.

Watching the Sunrise, I sometimes just hold my breathe, so I can share a breathe with the sun.

Being awake at dawn is such a magical experience for me. To  be aware, conscious and present

for a new day, its such a gift.

Start your day a new…. wake up at Sunrise and connect with Spirit….

It will change your life…..

Lotsa Love


L i v i n g & A four handed reiki session

L i v i n g      &   A four handed reiki session

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Today was very auspicious day for me. I introduced Colleen my 42nd Reiki Student to Isobel my 41st Student in Reiki.

We Reiki’d each other and had a awesome Lunch prepared by Wp van Heerden.

Life at Satori farm, has settled down, we have a house for our generator built with rammed earth.

Willem installed a PLUG and dug the wiring underground so we could use the generator anytime,

and it will also power the repeator for our 3G when the generator is running simultaneously.

It is certainly getting colder, so I started chopping wood and making fire in the morning before

I do yoga and do my normal walking routine.

Its been 4 weeks since my last Reiki Attunement and I can feel that I too have changed, learnt and grown

from this experience. My mind and spirit are looking at alternatives like adding specific gem stones

to a reiki session, such as Sugilite and Dioptase as they remove trauma and disease from the body,

how magical is that! I have been using it since I bought them from Leigh at the Crystal Shop in Howick.

It is amazing!  I am venturing into doing more body repairs : physical, and spiritually, to fulfill

my destiny of being a true healer.

Magic is out there, You have to find the part of you that says nothing is impossible and make that possible….

Rough Deepak Chopra quote !     I believe I am venturing into that………

All good this side! still loving living off the grid.

Lotsa love


My B I G gratitude list

My B I G gratitude list

First off, let me say, I am VERY HAPPY at Satori farm. I did not think that I would be

happy living off the grid, but I am. I am loving it …..

I am experiencing my body in a different way. I am learning that massage fit is

definitely not manual labour fit. I am have learnt that working manually is very good

for my Spirit, so I am grasping the art of chopping wood, making fire and enjoying it.

I am very grateful for Jeff and Louise, who have invited us to live at Satori farm. Thank you.

(and for Everything ….they have done! Thank you)

I am very grateful for : Carlene Bronner who moved us to Satori farm, with her amazing helper.

I am very grateful for : Katie Robinson who has taught me about friendship, and blessed us with doors for our new home.

I am very grateful for : Mike Beresford who used his TLB to level the land and dug our septic tank hole.

I am very grateful for : Jabu Schoeman in Howick who gave us a discount on one cubic meter of rough cut pine.

I am very grateful for : Kandy Slater for the windows for our new home.

I am very grateful for : Sam and Shine : endless advise.

I am very grateful for : Ross Janisch : for our plants   & Sally Anne Patterson for our plants .

I am very grateful for : Tarryn Grobler for assisting us….with manual labour.

I feel part of a community of caring, loving, people with big hearts and kindness.

I am  very happy here at Satori farm, my spirit is well. I feel fulfilled on so many levels!

Thank you Vodacom for 3 G!

Bless you with Abundance and love, THANK YOU !


Nurturing you through the Winter Months!


Yes Winter has arrived in the Midlands! May, June, July, we are blessed with Sunny days and freezing mornings and


I decided to look at ways to nurture my body through the winter, so here goes:

1. Drench my body in a nice lotion after a shower or bath. (no dry skin)

2. Go to sleep early, so I am well rested.

3. Chop wood and make a fire when its cold, every night, as it is so soothing.

4. Drink more tea: my favourite is peppermint tea from Woolworths at the moment.

5. Drink my 2 l of water at midday, because its warm then. (doing it now!)

6. Have my heaviest meal at lunch time.

7. Watch movies and cuddle more.

8. Cuddle : OFTEN.

9. Have a pile of books to read at my bedside table.

10. Keep the snacks to a limit : ie. one block of chocolate a day, if I need to. . .

11. Think of interesting treats like fried seeds in honey and mustard! my favourite.

12. Keep nuts on hand. Eat lotsa apples to keep my digestion good.

13. Drink Dietamacious Earth to keep my colon clean, everyday.

14. Walk at Sunrise.

15. Do Yoga before sunrise.

16. Meditate/ Visual : Abundance everyday.

17. Enjoy the SUN and soak it up, everyday

18. Re organise your wardrobe, less is more.

19. Get woolly warm socks.

20. Wear scarves for Winter.

21. Go for a reiki session / massage session!     (084 603 0604, call me)   I reiki me EVERYDAY!

Winter is just a season, lets enjoy the change, make it fun to embrace the cold and

Spring will be here soon!

3G Vodacom Signal : In Our House! whoop whoop!

IMG_20150504_132727 IMG_20150504_124309I am very excited while writing this blog! After complaining for 65 days everyday to VODACOM on

111 telephone number and on email, they have successfully

installed a cell signal booster in our home for FREE!

I am very happy, as this will run off our generator while we save for solar panels!

It is certainly life changing!

Thank you to Vodacom: Faizel Desai, Mbo the technician and Sidishta and Fred who left with

smiles after the installation!

I am so glad, I used my experience in the service industry to pursue my complaint.

Thank you to Mohammed Moosa my colleague in Cape town,  who took time out to investigate

this for me! You guys are amazing! Thank you !@

Bless you!


3 G @ Satori

A woman living in a Mans world ! :-(((

A woman living in a Mans world ! :-(((

I am a woman. I worked in a mans world, where I fulfilled the roles of    I have to, I must, I should,

any kindness, love, compassion was seen as a WEAKNESS! and obviously, used against me.

I have been treating a few woman who work in a corporate environment, they are empaths,

they feel other peoples pain and take responsibility for so many of their colleagues and

job stress’s that they forget to live their spirit.

As a woman, I can see the pattern.

We feel that being a woman or being feminine is a WEAKNESS and we suppress ourselves.

We wear pants instead of dress’s.

We are driven by a male energy of go go , do do and forget who you are, happily playing a role.

Long long long ago, woman led tribes, nations, people, we are the leaders of this world.

We don’t have to conform to the annoying boss.

We choose to have kids or not.

We choose to stay with a abusive partner or not.

We DECIDE, because we are powerful, spiritual, nurturing beings who

takes care of people. We bring forth balance to a imbalanced male dominated

system, which brings forth more unhappiness in this world.

STOP!   suppressing your female side, bring forth your GODDESSness!

Wear skirts, grow your hair, have pms days, say no often.

Refuse to conform to societies norms, they suck!

Make your own rules ladies! The world needs you…. and you need you!

All my love and sassyness.


Winter Insulation! b r r r r r

Winter is upon us! Well, it is cold everywhere! because its Winter!

We decided to insulate my studio with Styrofoam and seal all the cracks and air gaps in my studio,

so it is warm and toasty! and it is! You can get your hands on Polystyrene in Howick on 0710773063.

We had to seal our room and lounge area with expandable spray in foam, we found a cheaper

make of R90 a can in Howick and used 2 cans to do the job.

Next, we used black plastic to seal the bedroom floor and placed indian mats on

top of it, to keep the cold out. We also used throws on the walls and fleece at the windows

to keep the cold out.

We are more comfortable and less cold in our new space. We have a fire place with lots of wood,

so we will be toasty throughout the winter.

Day  65! Journeying on . . . .


Happy Workers day! “Grocery Shopping in South Africa : Midlands “

Today is WORKERS day, a South african public holiday, everyone has the day off,

except the cashiers at Pick ‘n Pay, Spar and Woolworths.

I always observe the energy in the shop, the energy at Pick and pay is filled with desperation,

a limit of survival, endless long queues, people chatting in the isle like long last friends,

shopping is an outing, a community project, thats what it feels like. Everyone is poor,

they are looking for bargains to make ends meet and to feed the endless mouths at home.

I then popped into Woolworths, a total different vibe, exuberance and lush living is the priority.

Flowers cost R159.99 for 3 tiny flowers on the stem. Breads, cheese’s, pies, comfort living is

promoted. There is no sense of desperation or need, it is just lavish and we have more than

enough, why not. I saw a mom and a baby buying one tin of milk and one bag of huggies,

to me, she felt more real than the rest. She has her priorities straight, her kid.

I then popped into Spar, they cater for everyone. There is no air of desperation or need.

It is a convenient store, it stocks everything from bread, to meat to chips. Its a store, for

I forgot something along the way, a quick pop in for a snack.

The staff are always friendly and efficient.

Workers day was created to enable people to rest, some still work on this day like any other,

choosing to earn a little extra.

South africa is complex, the extremes of both poverty and wealth are enormous.

Some struggle to meet,  their own needs, but others easily throw their excess into the

trash can, which could feed a small family.

Becoming more and more conscious of life’s priorities by living off the grid

and valuing what is true and real, opposed to what is not.

This is a controversial blog, I know, I am not judging, just observing life, outside of


Happy Workers Day!


What can you do in a day?

Tarryns visit  (9) Tarryns visit  (8) Tarryns visit  (7)Our day started with a beautiful sunrise on Saturday morning.

Willem, Tarryn and I had 3 missions :

1. create a garden, 2. do a rammed earth house for the generator,

3. insulate my healing studio.

It started with a whole lot of shovelling soil into a wheel barrow and shifting it to the garden spot,

this took about 30 minutes to do. We then had to move 2 very heavy wooden sleepers into the garden

to shape it. If you know, wooden sleepers are super heavy, heevinggggg  it into the garden was no easy task.

Next Willem and Tarryn replanted the herbs and shaped the garden.

Our next task was to shovel clay and ramm it into a shape with the mould that Willem constructed.

Our first attempt, was good but we forgot to add water to the mix.

Our second attempt, we shovelled clay plus cement, added water and made a good mixture.

We would shovel the mixture into the mould and RAMM it, layer for layer.

What were left with, is 2 walls, which are busy curing.

Our next task was to seal the “air”holes between the roof. We used an expandable foam

which we purchased from Mica in Howick. The foam expands and seals the area,

wonderful and easy.

We all slept well on Saturday evening, a good dose of Laughter and Joy was shared

and we were definitely a good team together.

Journeying on…..

Lotsa Love


When choosing a Reiki practitioner, what to look for?

569774a4d968d3d876c9055d40f41d68 My first Reiki session took place in 2004, my Teacher was Renee Fouche, she lived in

Green Point, she was a buddist and a very chilled, wise and  cool lady. I loved her energy and vibe.

Meeting her changed my life, she steered me to India, in particular Auroville which helped me

find my true self. She herself had lived in Auroville for a while and knew I could benefit from this


She was wise, knowledgable and  had a big sense of humour and we still connect sometimes,

and she has visited us in the Midlands.

When you choose a Reiki practitioner, things to look for:

Light in the eyes.

Heated hands / unnaturally warm hands

A calmness you cannot explain.

A deeper awareness.

Their life is calm and not filled with drama.

They speak truthfully and honestly.

SOBER lifestyle.

Practising Reiki, we live by a code.

We are accountable to the Universe for everything, our karma is always INSTANT.

I stopped eating meat on 13 Sept 2007 and chicken, I detox regularly, like everyday!

I am conscious about my life and my choices and how it affects the earth.

Choose your practitioner wisely!

Eskom Loadshedding = Conscious Awakening for you?

I have heard alot of complaints about Eskom load-shedding lately, from any person who has electricity.

I think that this is a Conscious awakening for many! Electricity supplied is not a bottomless supply.

The Earth has limited supplies and its resources are to be valued, appreciated and treasured.

I don’t have load shedding. I use solar panels for lights and for charging my cellular telephone.

We use a 2 kva generator for our washing machine, our computer, my blender and this makes

us aware and conscious of the amount of power we utilise.

Going off the grid is simple and easy?

You assess what your needs are ?

You need a hot shower everyday. Install a gas geyser.

You need to cook. Install a gas stove.

You don’t need a refrigerator as it is noisy, and stores left overs that no one wants to eat.

You need a fireplace to keep warm, install one.

You need wood, collect it from the forest.

I have become so in sync with nature while living here. ..

I need the sun to dry the laundry, to charge our solar panels, and to refresh my body.

I believe that living a simple life has made me more grateful and I experience gratitude

everyday for just being here.

Take a break from TV, Noise and the like, it might change your life.

All my love


Half a Healer = ?

Half a Healer = ?

Over the past few weeks, I have been working on people who have received Reiki Attunements

but due to FEAR, JUDGEMENT and Financial responsibilities, they have to keep

living separate lives.

I too lived a corporate life but I couldn’t be spiritual or authentic.

If you have told the Universe, you will be a healer, and you don’t the consequences

are many.

You absorb other peoples pain and eventually end up with a Unknown Disease, it saps your life force.

Living your path as a healer is imperative, there is NO UNDO button, no turning back, once

you have chosen the healing path. It is better for you to NOT venture down it,

if only to keep yourself in the closet.

As a Reiki healer you undertake to meditate, live by affirmations,

you also commit to nurturing, loving, caring and living in Harmony with

the Earth, all living beings and basic habits of eating meat will probably fall away.

You are different, so life will become different. You are connected to

a higher power which guides you and directs your life, called the Universe.

You will also be led by your own intuition and true self.

So, rather than be a half healer, take the plunge, destiny cannot be fought,

authenticity cannot  be bought and truth is true, it cannot be faked.

Choose your path wisely.

Planning to go off the grid? How To : Luxury vs Necessity

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In order to give you some background, let me start with : Willem and I lived in

India in 2008. India has electricity 2 hrs a day, every part of the country

gets it, and in that time you pump water to your water tank, you fetch

water from the water drinking tap and you charge your cell phone.

All of this takes planning, discipline and tolerance.

When we started to consider going off the grid, we

had some planning behind it.

Simplying life  : was the KEY

So, it was NO more kettle, electric blanket, refrigerator, no watching series

every night, no going online everyday. The necessities we discussed were

Gas for food, Gas for hot water, Generator for all the other things like :

A blender, the washing machine, power driven tools which makes

building easier and my computer of cause.

You begin to discern that having electricity is a luxury and not a

necessity.  YES, I know, don’t curse me.

I am learning that I am living fine without it.

We donated a box of things we don’t need to the SPCA shop the other day,

it felt nice. A release.

We go to bed at sunset as it is dark and there is no appliances running,

we live in silence. I can hear the stream gushing with water.

I can hear the wind blow. I can see the stars at night.

The Earth and its resources I believe can be valued and treasured, even

nurtured, so we have its magic for a while longer.

May this make you reconsider a few things ? luxury or necessity?


Pioneer Living : Day 42

Our bathroom is complete, a hot shower, flushing toilet, it feels like heaven!

(Colleen happy dance)
Sonia Choquette says that when things go “wrong”our joy guides are

alerting us, that we are taking ourselves OH SOOO seriously!

Well recently someone liberated my rosequartz at the gate. When

I placed it there, my Higher self said, “Dont you think someone will steal it.”

I naively said no!  No one would do that, so after 7 years, it has moved to a new home,

and so has one of my hematite balls from my studio! Well I have re ordered

a new batch! Blessed the liberating beings, and moved on.

This week we watched two movies. The one was called “The International”,

it showcased banks, debt, and alot of cities like Italy and the USA in it.

What caught my attention was : “they mentioned that DEBT enslaves

the societies”. I tend to agree with that. People will easily use

money they do not have, buy a house, they cannot afford

and die trying to pay for it all.

So, here is some useful Tips for you!

Live Simply! Cash is King.

Cut up the card : Credit card, Woolworths, Edgars.

Reduce your debt.

Quit the job you hate.

Go do what you love.

Be Truthful with yourself.

Start to think out of the box.

Follow your heart, not your head.

Say NO! often . . . .  . . .

LOVE all of you.

Smile Often.


Time to log off! Lotsa Love to you! and Thank you for reading…….all 302  of you….

First Movie! Bathroom complete!

On  Friday evening we watched our first movie at Home!

It felt so special. We set up the generator, set up the pc,

set up the Projector and watched a comedy, we held

hands and laughed together!

Day 36!  We watched a movie! I am appreciating the journey.

On Saturday morning, we painted our bathroom to ensure it is well

water proofed for the steam. After 2 hrs of painting, my arms were tired and numb.

During the night, my arms felt achy! A different kind of work, painting :-*

I am still loving living off the grid and enjoying the silence!

Being Grateful for every experience and truly loving our

shower and flushing toilet!

Day 38!  Grateful for small miracles and manual labour!


Logging off!  Lotsa Love



The last 33 days . . . Living off the grid. ..

I want to burst out of my skin with joy, we now have a flushing toilet.

I laughed at myself in the mall, I stood in the booth just flushing the toilet and

watching the water. I found myself, realizing it is such a miracle.

Taking into account, we carried the cement blogs, Willem cemented the sides,

the tops, the piping. We collected rocks and filled the french drainage pit.

We patiently waited for the cement to dry, we prayed for sunshine and good weather.

Willem had the shit job of emptying the porter toilet which was no fun for him.

If I think about the entire process of having a flushing toilet, it is a miracle.

We have put many hours of labour into it.

I think about how I had to learn how to do things physically and how

doing manual labour is very intensive.


When we arrived on the 27 February 2015, we had no running water in the cabin, we used the donkeys water pipe.

I washed dishes in a enamel bowl and carried water into the house for drinking and cooking.

By day 3 Willem had set up the pipes and we had a tap in the house. I was ecstatic, yay for running water.

On the first day, Willem built a “cupboard” for our clothes and we discovered, I had to much clothes.

On the second day, we had to find a space for all our stuff. We had an additional double bed which stood in the lounge,

including a tumble dryer and washing machine taking up space.

Willem was swift and started building the bathroom  / storage space for our stuff.

We  stored Wp paintings in the loft at the lodge, in the meantime.

We managed to move the double bed into the roof of the bathroom which meant

we could move the washing machine and tumble dryer outside, yay! for space.

By day twenty five, we now had a living space. We organised the couches, table and chairs

and kitchen so the feng shui was good.

Willem and I love order, he had a good afrikaans saying: Elke ding het sy plek.

Everything has its place and its true, it does work.

Willem will be water proofing the wood in the bathroom, so the shower will be operational soon.

Jeff advised us to get a different regulator for the gas geyser so we bought one at AA gas in Howick,

fingers crossed for hot water.


I am feeling very enthused at our progress of creating a home for us here at Satori farm.

As I type Willem is cutting wood for shelves for the last 2 boxes of dvd’s and stuff I have collected

over the years. (yay) Some more order.






31 days of Living Sustainably

It’s been 31 days of no refrigerator, no electricity, no running hot water, no flushing toilet = I have Survived the discomfort.

Living clean and simple brings out all sort of discomforts in others.
I have been judged, ridiculed, insulted…

I don’t let any of it bother me, because I look at who it is coming from… A loving? Kind? Person = NOT.

I love living in the silence.
I love that we are working hard on our bathroom, ie.septic tank.
I love that I appreciate the miracle of flushing toilets now.
I love that we used to spend R1000 on electricity and have spent only R600 on petrol in 2 months.
I love that I am more disciplined with charging my phone on solar power.
The “power” we use is softer, gentler, cleaner.
I feel more in tune with nature and the Universe.
It feels more real living here.
I feel more alive.
I feel that I am serving my purpose, better.

I m enduring the discomfort as I know, it will end soon enough….

Thank you for the amazing, loving, support from the Positive people…Bless you.


Manual Labour

Satori farm 26 days later Mar 2015 (52)


Well its been 27 days after our move to Satori farm.
I have offloaded boxes, moved furniture, packed and repacked.
I have carried septic tanks concrete blocks of 50kg.
I have shovelled stones and sands for making concrete.
I have offloaded wood planks for the bathroom.
I have lifted furniture to lay down carpets.
I have cooked, cleaned and did laundry, sometimes multitasking.

I never liked manual labour, but I see the rewards are loosing
weight and being fully in touch with your body.

Your body is far more capable of “doing” even when you
think you are TIRED!

If you can will your mind, you and change and
use your body…. You can ……

Living off the grid isn’t difficult, it just
takes discipline to:
Wash laundry when the sun shines.
To charge your cell phone at 100% when the sun shines.
To learn simple techniques of charging your cell phone
and run the washing machine when the generator is on.
A Generator is a wonderful investment and makes
things a little easier, it takes about 1litre of petrol for
daily chores, a saving and a low carbon footprint.

I am feeling more at home! We have a neat and tidy living
space and I feel comfortable even though we still have
alot of work to do on the bathroom and the surrounding area.

I am loving this adventure, and my Inner growth
of being uncomfortable. I am becoming
more accepting of how things work, and that
disciplining yourself is not a bad thing,
its actually good for you!

Time to sign off! all my love. Colleen

Want vs Need : Day 20 Living Sustainably





Robin Sharma says :  The universe gives you what you need and not what you want.


Well  I wanted a flushing toilet, I wanted a shower, I wanted a bathroom, I wanted all these things

however, I didn’t get it.

I have a outside loo and I shower at Louise and Jeff’s house at the top of the hill.

I have learnt to live without a refrigerator.

I have one tap in the house for washing dishes.

I have solar to power the lights and cell phone but sometimes Mother Nature gives

us rain for 3 days which means no solar. I then use the generator which takes approximately

an hour to charge my cell phone.

I have wonky cell phone reception, and I have complained to Vodacom for 20 days.

I am learning to live without watching movies. ( I go visit Katie our old neighbour for a movie and a bath)

I have learnt that when the sun shines, do all the laundry as you don’t know when it can rain for days.

I have learnt to use water sparingly. I have learnt to carry heavy cement squares to help

Willem install the septic tank.

I have learnt to discipline myself, so that I use the solar power, we have wisely.

Living sustainably is tough, you have to plan, think ahead and use your resources wisely.

I love it though, it is a challenge for me to change and adapt, to re assess which are

priorities and what is the most important aspect of something now!

I am sorry blog readers, I will have to blog less, it has taken me 46 minutes to write

this blog and I can hear the generator running.. . . .


Time to logg off!


All my love to you~  : as I journey on. . . .

DAY 13: Living off the grid: Simplicity


Today is day 13 of living at Satori farm. We have mountain stream water.

We have a generator that powers this computer and my magic blender.

We have a outside loo which has the best view of the forest.

The bathroom is under construction, Willem is on it.

How has this simplicity of life influenced me?

Well, I am grounded, very grounded. The silence is very soothing to my soul.

I wait for sunrise so I can go walking and watch the colours painted by the sun.

I love waking up early. I have also had more energy to socialize with others which

I didn’t have before. I look forward to a warm  shower to complete my day.

Simpler is better for me. The environment of fresh air, star filled skies,

moonlit evenings has been amazing.

I thought I would “suffer” living off the grid, but in fact my life has

become simpler and less cluttered.

I have all I need and I am enjoying the process of being here.

Loving every moment,  as I grow and become more in tuned with the Universe.

Time to switch off! the generator. . .  later Loves. C

Simpler, Better,Slower : Living off the grid

IMG_20150211_071854Today is day 6, since moving to Satori Farm. We moved from Khululeka farm in 5 hrs, 3 bakkie loads and a trailer.

We had to move, shift, carry and fit our possessions into one cabin.

I had to compact my studio into one cabin.

For four days it rained with laundry piling up and solar not charging, but we endured.

Yesterday, the sunshine appeared charging the solar panel and battery for lights and charging our cell phones.

We are using a 2 kva generator for our washing machine, computer and my Salute blender.

On day 3 we connected water to the Jojo tank, opening the tap felt like a miracle.

Our toilet is a portable loo in the hidden forest.

We shower at Louise and Jeff ‘s rondavel, as our bathroom is not build as yet.

All in all, I am coping, growing in this silence.

It fulfills my soul. My spirit is happy. I feel a sense of belonging, of this is how it should be.

I go to sleep seeing the stars, feeling the moon shine upon us.

Living close to Nature and being dependant on its resources, living synchronicity.

Loving my journey.

All my love


Body language + intuition = People Lie


I have been a empath for all of my life and I also read body language,

vibration, attitude and telepathically your  thoughts.

On my birthday, I met someone who recognised me from

viewing a house a long time ago in Lidgetton.

We had refused to rent the house as we got bad vibes from

his wife and we didn’t feel comfortable in the space.

He grinningly admitted being disappointed and said no…that

was not so. I looked him in the eye and said please stop the

BULLSHIT and admit the truth! After a few seconds,

he said I was right. I don’t go out because I

value my peace and quiet and I value not

being put into situations where I don’t

want conflict. (where I have to use my warrior side)

PEOPLE lie!   they don’t have the balls to be honest with themselves

and feel the need to bullshit other people. (fake niceness!!))

Body language ! if your mouth says You’ll miss me and your body

says HELL no! obviously, I will laugh at your lies! Please save it.

Vibration and attitude transmits an energy which I feel

and it does tell the truth.

Sometimes reading people and knowing the truth is a pain in the arse,

but I am dealing with it head on.

Honesty is best!

Trust me I can take it! I wear my big girl Panties!

Alternative energy sources: Going off the Grid : how to.

So, as you know, we are going off the grid, that means no ESKOM electricity.

No more comforts of flipping the switch for anything.

Well, part of me is sad because I so love my comforts.

When I returned from India in 2008, I vowed to have

running hot water, electricity, and a good road.  I will be having 2 out of 3 at

Satori farm.

However! I also adjusted to having no electricity in India for a year.

What I experienced is a disciplined life, routine.

I have purchased

a 2 Kva generator made by Ryobi at, it can

power anything up to 2500 W. (my super blender is 1200W : yay!)

We also purchased a small solar kit from Midlands Solar Sales in

Pietermaritzburg which means we will have 4 LED lights

and 2 cell phone charger for our cell phones.

We won’t be in the dark, we will have a gas geyser which

will supply our hot water.

Items that cannot run on solar : dehydrator (which I just bought and now must sell),

electric blankets, infra red lights, fridge, tumble dryer. (so, I am selling these items.)

Going off the grid is going to take some getting used to.

I will go through a adjusting period of just going with the flow,

forming a new routine of life at Satori.

Am I scared ? Yes, for sure.

Am I excited? Yes, I have waited 7 years for this.

Am I uncomfortable? Yes, that means I am growing into a stronger me.

I will keep sharing my journey…….with you.

Lotsa Love


I know …


I have known pain and overcame it.

I have experienced disappointment, accepted it with grace.

I have known heartbreak, I now protect my heart.

I can read people, especially when they lie, I laugh at it.

I have scars that have healed but I don’t dwell on it.

I live a secluded life because I don’t like the rat race.

If I like you, you’ll know it, if not, walk on by.

I was born to do magic with the human body, I am ok with my weird.

I live in two worlds, the physical and spiritual, I love it.

I connect with nature everyday, because I love it.

I pray because I love how prayer changes my vibration.

I love to meditate because its my Wand from the Universe.

I dream because I can.

I speak my truth because I choose to.

I only seek to serve my purpose to live full out!

Turning 39 in 7 days : my inner reflection


In 7 days time I will be 39 years old. I have been having several debates with myself

and weighing my own scales about the promises I made to myself.

I am leaner, I eat cleaner, I am fitter.

I have been debating “need vs want”. Want I am finding is insatiable and unfulfilling.

NEED is fulfilling and connected to a Universal law of Dharma, when you serve your

life purpose, You are taken care of by the Universe.

I have all I Need!  My biggest dream is coming true. I feel fulfilled and grounded.

I honestly can’t say what I would like for  my birthday, because my needs are provided for.

On a different note, 39 divide by 3 is 13! my lucky number that’s a good thing.

I thought about what I have achieved in the last 7 years.

A flourishing practise.

A stronger body.

Learning to be happy now, not waiting.

Finding my Inner Joy everyday.

Learning to play more.

Creative Writing.

Snoozing with a cat.

Being up and about at Sunrise.

Say NO! more.

Choosing to affirm me. (Don’t hang out with people, I dislike)

Not conforming.

Being Weird, happily so.

Being happy being labelled HIPPIE.

Living In Abundance.

Learn to be more sacred, more prayer, more silence.

Eating more raw foods.

Loving my partner, saying it everyday.


It begins: Going off the grid

After kg cement  Feb


Yesterday, my partner asked for my help. I knew carrying cement stones would be hard

and I did all I could to delay the experience, but I needed to do it, so off I went to Satori farm.

We walked down a path into the forest, he pointed to 5 small bags and said : “these are yours to carry”.

I lifted one to place it on my shoulders, it was heavy. I then followed him to the water stand which was

being built. When I arrived, I burst into tears because it was heavy, uncomfortable and very hard.

He hugged me. I wiped my tears and continued back to the starting point where 4 more bags of

25kg awaited me.

(I carried 125kg in total. My partner did 18 bags…..)

The walk of carrying 25kg on your shoulders, walking through  a obstacle course of trees, water, mud

and a uphill through grass and rocks.

By bag no. 4 I stopped 3/4 of the way, just to rest and catch a breathe. I put the bag down

opened my arms and screamed to the mountains. No one heard me but I felt better.

By  bag no. 5 I had got the hang of this task, I felt good at achieving what was asked of me.

I felt good that I COULD HELP my partner. I felt that I had endurance and even though


I woke up this morning with a stiff shoulder but I know that I won’t really hurt

because my body is strong. I used to do weights for fun and built endurance

and strength more than 15 yrs ago, and I love that I have this magic inside of me.

I will share more about our adventures of dreaming our dream, building our own home.

Hugs and love.


Change your diet = Change your vibration

10 healthy alternatives


It has been just over 2 months of raw eating. I incorporated more salads, fresh vegetables,

raw soups into my diet. It has been an experience.

I feel everything, my Higher sense perception is 100% active.

I am staying away from crowds, loud noises.

I am becoming more of a hobbit.

I am more often that not refuse invitations unless I really like your company.

I am becoming very discerning.

I have cut out bread from my diet. I am eating more dehydrated foods, nuts, rice cakes.

I feel lighter and less heavy. I am sticking to walking and yoga everyday with

the occasional weight session during the week.

Eating healthy definitely changes your life. The safest place to eat

is at home : no msg, no preservatives, no gmo.

I am becoming quieter and gentler, fewer words, more doing.