Discipline has always been my punisher.
I was a brat and still I am a brat! I was punished for various amounts of things,
back chatting, being flippant, obnoxious, potty mouthed, I remember
once having to eat chillies because I swore and well down the chillies went.
I remember all the punishment I received, but that didn’t matter to me, because
I was rebellious, fierce, fiery, unruly, much like my hair, I just refused to be
tamed by anyone. (inside me, I knew my truth and what they spoke was bullshit)
Eventually, I played the role of good kid, I observed, I ratted on people,
and that soothed my rebellious side, I was the apple of my grandfathers eye
which meant, I was protected, from the evil gazes of sisters, cousins, aunts, etc.
Discipline was my punisher, I knew that at home and at school.
As I start to become older and wiser, I am learning to make discipline,
Discipline should be my sculptor not my punisher anymore.
I am becoming gentler with myself which means, instead of
overeating to stop the ‘feeling” of being uncomfortable, I can
address the emotion and SPEAK up about my feelings.
Instead of SUBDUING what I feel, I can now, Act
on what I would like my body to be.
I started reading a Walking Chi KUNG book about CHI / Movements.
I met this amazing MAN who will be 60 years old next year
and he is as fit as a 20 year old, that speaks volumes, just his
positive outlook and inner mental capacity, blew me away.
I decided that I have been weak in my mental capacity and
that I need to become stronger, by disciplining every aspect
of myself. Beginning a Self mastery Journey for 2017.
I now walk for a kilometre every 2nd day, I do yoga every 2nd day,
weight training, toning training, jogging on the spot and becoming more
flexible with myself with MOVEMENT!
I have started saying no thank you to 2nd helpings of food, trying to
cut down my calorie intake, so my digestive fires can work better.
Learning to become mentally stronger means watching my MOUTH
and the words I speak, also keeping my energy close and not getting
sucked into anyone else’s story.
What I am observing is a stronger capacity to observe and
be disciplined with myself, the more I exercise it, the
stronger I feel within me.
CHI KUNG is about nurturing your inner self with movements
which makes you feel amazing. I am loving it.
In using discipline as my sculptor, I have set a few goals for
2017 which with the use of Intention, Prayer, Meditation and
Inner peace, I will have the mental capacity to achieve it.
Discipline, the sculptor to mould me.
Discipline, to reach beyond my comforts.
Discipline, to step into the pain and address it.
Discipline, to let go of what NO longer serves me.
Discipline, Choosing my happiness, my journey.